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OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
Waking up in the early morning when it's still dark. I feel really anxious and the worst thing is I feel that I won't be able to CTB.
 
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ihatemylife

Student
Jul 14, 2021
140
When I wake up in morning and I think, no this is not a bad dream this is really my life
 
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somedayillbefree

Member
Aug 8, 2021
11
This is an interesting question. I normally feel the most suicidal first thing in the morning and late at night. Basically whenever I'm alone and can't distract myself.
 
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LifeIsAChore11

Member
Dec 18, 2020
66
Definitely when I wake up. Or before I sleep because I know I will wake up even tho I'm about to do my favorite thing: sleep.
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,414
I LOVE @All Things Must Pass answer a lot! I 100% go with that answer.

THANK YOU as it is the perfect answer and also gave me a chuckle.

Walter
 
NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,821
When I'm conscious/awake.
 
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NoPointToContinue

Student
Jun 2, 2021
126
During the day there is acute hatred towards existence or meaninglessness of it all, during the evening/night there is almost unbearable loneliness, feeling of isolation and disconnection.
 
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BrokenLine

Experienced
Jul 13, 2019
255
Usually in the evening, I really don't know why,
 
Pisceslilith

Pisceslilith

Student
Aug 19, 2019
159
Morning to the afternoon, sometimes the night isn't so bad but waking up is always horrible cause I always know I'll dread the day. I have to exist living a meaningless unwanted life which is frustrating.
 
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S like Siren

S like Siren

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,591
All day long... but especially when I open my eyes in the morning and before sleeping
 
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TommyWiseau

TommyWiseau

Member
Jan 26, 2019
12
Whenever I spend too much time at home and not at work. Which is ironic since I hate my job and whenever I'm there, I just want to go home.
 
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MBY85

Member
Oct 21, 2020
52
The morning. I always hope the miracle of don't wake up but obviously I am not so lucky
 
Flau

Flau

i'm so done lmao
Dec 30, 2019
76
Sunrise. Doesn't matter what is on the clock I'm feared of the sun

The other thing is if I skip sunrise... Would be daytime. Any hour before sunset. Only at night, my anxiety calms down. (Die to many reasons, not just time of day)
 
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doesntevenmatter

Member
Aug 12, 2021
64
I see a lot of people talking about hating their job, and I did too... Very recently I left. I'm planning a move and it seemed to work out, but some things happened and I have to tell you, I miss it so much. I hated it more than anything because of how toxic it became, but just having that interaction with people... Losing that, it's really messed me up. Some other things happened too that caused all this, but I feel like I would actually be handling it better if I was back at my old job.

Anyways, sorry to ramble. The only time I am usually, USUALLY, safe is when I first wake up. I think it's because I am too drowsy and stuff to be depressed. If I had a messed up dream, then maybe, but even then it's usually not until the day begins that things spiral. Once the day does begin, all bets are off... It can happen gradually, suddenly, day, night.. Doesn't matter. When the feelings come (sometimes triggered) they don't seem to care what time or day it is.
 
Dear Agony

Dear Agony

The Void
Jan 24, 2020
296
When I lie in bed to sleep, and any time of the day I check my weight and see a number that bothers me.
 
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Teardrop2021

Member
Aug 14, 2021
77
Mornings for sure. Night before bed is the best....I've gotten through the day and just have sleep to look forward to.
 
Alwaysbadtime

Alwaysbadtime

Enlightened
Jun 28, 2021
1,158
All day, night and when I dream. It's all really bad. There's no pleasurable or tolerable minute. Defacating I can fill a second or two with purpose.

It's FUCKING so bad.
 
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everydayiloveyou

Arcanist
Jul 5, 2020
490
Usually late in the night, after 3am but before 8am.

When I was in K-12 it'd be around 3pm, right when school let out, and 7am when we headed to class. I like those times now, but not when I'm passing by a school. Seeing all the kids swarming in and out brings me right back to those days.
 
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Maaizr

Maaizr

LESS TALKING MORE KILLING
Aug 2, 2021
149
During the day there is acute hatred towards existence or meaninglessness of it all, during the evening/night there is almost unbearable loneliness, feeling of isolation and disconnection.

jesus, this is spot on for me
 

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