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way out of here
- Apr 8, 2023
- 18
what is driving you to suicide? what is your biggest issue that causes you constant stress and anxiety?
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what? you don't have to answer if you don't want to?Why do you want to know? Who are you?
what are you anxious about? if you don't mind me askingLoneliness
Anxiety
Being tortures by my mind
Sometimes depression hits me out of nowhere and for no reason
Not sure which is my top problem they are all equally horrific
then the question probably isn't for youWhat makes you think stress and or anxiety is the driving factor?
The futurewhat? you don't have to answer if you don't want to?
what are you anxious about? if you don't mind me asking
What would you have majored in if you had a choice?My biggest issue is that I'm alive despite only suffering in existence and not experiencing any joy. I don't have any interests so there's nothing that I like. I'm permanently too fucked up developmentally to make friends which means that I'll have to live the rest of my life without a single friend. I never wanted to be anything in life nor did I want to live through life so the studies that I'm doing in university all feels so pointless, painful and dreadful. Reading my previous sentence would automatically make some, or most, people say something along the lines of "maybe what you're doing in university isn't for you, perhaps there's something better for you" etc but, in my case, there isn't anything better for me. No matter what I do, I'll always feel the same because my brain has automatically been wired to not really want to do anything within life and there's nothing I can do to change this.
All in all, my brain was just made to not want to like life at all and to only suffer through the moments in which I'm awake. I want to kill myself so that I can save myself from decades of decades of suffering and also because I never really belonged in life in the first place. I could never relate to humanity when they had passions, hobbies, entertainment, happiness etc etc. Why are they all so insistent on wanting to do stuff in life? I don't get it and I never will because my neurotype is simply incompatible with life whereas it's highly compatible with permanent non existence. Always was and always have been
Basically, Im not able to find a meaning for life.what is driving you to suicide? what is your biggest issue that causes you constant stress and anxiety?
The point of my entire post was that I don't want to major in anything to begin with. There just isn't a single thing that I enjoy or want to doWhat would you have majored in if you had a choice?
Basically, Im not able to find a meaning for life.
I dont have strong reasons that motivate me to endure my daily suferrings.
"Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose." - Victor Frankl
SameAutism, inability to be casually social. Every problem in my life stems from that.
Can I ask what happened? Im not trying to pry I just like to hear what the individual has to say (something I get when people say "what is cancer like").Brain injury
I'm not doing anything productive in my life either, but I don't see this as a problem. Why are people expected to be productive? Maybe my burnout has changed me…I was a driven, hardworking and motivated student but I failed to launch after college. I see no point in participating in this pyramid scheme of a societynot doing anything productive in my life
agoraphobia