Discussion What is Your #1 Reason for Not Wanting to Live?

[elenaboo25]

I am afraid of growing old and my physical problems getting worse with age.

 

[RadiantNumber]

I know it's never just ONE reason, but it can definitely FEEL like it.

What is your #1 reason that pushes you over the top for not wanting to live anymore?

Thank you for sharing.

Cause I don't want to get older (soon I'll be 31 and this is easiest slip road to 40 then 50 etc etc), I don't want to see my family dying I want to live in easier times even if in this easier times were hard one

 

[PaperAK]

There is no meaning in anything. There is no such thing as caring for someone, everything you do you do for yourself. People say they care about you because they care about you but in reality it's because it makes them feel better about themselves by being nice to someone. Everyone does things out f obligation in making themselves feel better, there is no such thing as helping someone because you're a good person. No one is a good person, everyone is inherently selfish.

Of course there's nothing wrong with it.. but in that sense there is no point in living. I do not want to live a false reality under the lie that there will always be good in life when there is not. There is nothing worth living for other than to stay a little longer to humour yourself. I want to accomplish good things in life, if I live, I want to become a doctor and help people to satisfy my own superiority complex of choosing who I want to treat well base off of how much I like them. Because I am selfish, just like everyone else.

 

[hybridize]

Eupd, complex mental health. Incredibly rare genetic disorder which has already left me blind in one eye and will blind the other one day, poor physical health with ongoing seemingly unsolvable vitamin deficiencies, recent heartbreak, being replaced with another man instantly. Now im terrified of relationships, love and vulnerability. Lost my driving licence due to impulsive bad decisions while having mental breakdowns. Lost my home, moved back in with my mum who makes me feel like a burden. I work alone so I'm isolated and don't earn enough to build a comfortable life for myself.

So truthfully it's hard to say it was only one of the above. All of them stacked has me feeling like I have no choice.

 

[adachichichi]

not having a white girl love me for 27 years