Life itself is too disappointing and not worth living imo. I wish that life could be like a fictional utopia but reality isn't nice unfortunately. In this life, most people are forced to work... not just to wage slave but also to maintain themselves by taking care of themselves. I find it to be too exhausting and simply not worth it. Our world is based off darwinism and survival of the fittest. This world has so much competition and suffering happening within it. Not to mention, it's always possible for me to face extreme suffering in the future due to mere chance. This is all a consequence of life itself.
Life requires so much effort just to barely survive and, on top of that, it's always possible for me to develop some sort of condition which increases my suffering to new levels. It's life itself that makes me crave death