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Living_Hurts_so_Much
Specialist
- Jul 30, 2020
- 312
No one here will judge you on your reasons. They are yours and you have the right to feel the way you do.It's the fact that I'm already 30 and have had zero dating or relationship experience. I know my reason is stupid and shallow compared to everyone else's and that also fuels my other reason for wanting to CTB which is the fact that I'm petty and evil and feel like the moral thing to do is eliminate myself because even if I did have a girlfriend I'd probably ruin her life or something.
So I guess in summary, myself is the actual cause of my need to CTB.
My first/main reason is choosing the wrong path. I got married to be "normal" when all I wanted was the man I was in love with. Such huge regrets every day.