Discussion What is Your #1 Reason for Not Wanting to Live?

[Covert]

My inability to interact with people has made my life a horrorshow. I can't do basic things like go to the doctor, stay at a hotel, etc. Holding a job or meeting new people is impossible.

I find people boring and most of them are stupid. I just don't fit into this world. I have no idea how I made it this far.

 

[Yavannah]

autism.
this curse disorder robber me of everything -
i could have been human
I mourn the life I could have had, every day..

 

[wheezle42]

pain

 

[cosmic-freedom]

My narcissistic father and unemployment

 

[whitesumac]

I live in constant chronic pain with major anxiety and panick attacks a have to take clonodine to help it slow but still doesn't go away , wish I owned a gun

 

[Fragile_]

The biggest reason is my around 8yr long porn addiction that has ruined my brain and hopes for any genuine romantic connection to someone, which hurts even more cuz I was never loved or wanted by anyone.. just 0 previous experiences. I don't feel happiness from anything, my brain just doesn't get stimulated enough by normal things in life

 

[ham and potatoes]

Man, constant anxiety sucks... Imagine getting awful, uncontrollable fears over the dumbest shit.
Oh, got some weird scratches on your leg after a day of outdoor word? Probably a bite mark and your going to get rabies and your going to die a slow, painful death.
Got a weird pain somewhere? Probably a cripplingly awful disease.
I know it's dumb, I know I'm a hypochondriac, but these fears are real, and that uncontrollable feat just makes life miserable

 

[Pyxel]

Definitely agoraphobia, ever since the diagnosis caused by a subsequent incident my life has been falling apart.

 

[4everHeartBroken]

TR depression

Same. I'm so sorry.

 

[divinemistress36]

Same. I'm so sorry.

Its cruel disease. I say disease cause it gets worse over time

 

[whitesumac]

The biggest reason is my around 8yr long porn addiction that has ruined my brain and hopes for any genuine romantic connection to someone, which hurts even more cuz I was never loved or wanted by anyone.. just 0 previous experiences. I don't feel happiness from anything, my brain just doesn't get stimulated enough by normal things in life

Stop thinking with your lower chakras mate and leave your forbidden fruit in you and let it rise to your brain and things will change as you'll be in a higher consciousness and you'll be way more intuitive and eat veggies fruit and nuts and your mind will change mate trust me it's fact.. we are all made up of energy...

Man, constant anxiety sucks... Imagine getting awful, uncontrollable fears over the dumbest shit.
Oh, got some weird scratches on your leg after a day of outdoor word? Probably a bite mark and your going to get rabies and your going to die a slow, painful death.
Got a weird pain somewhere? Probably a cripplingly awful disease.
I know it's dumb, I know I'm a hypochondriac, but these fears are real, and that uncontrollable feat just makes life miserable

I know your pain

 

[etherealspring]

for me theres just no point in living a life i dont even want to live. not to mention i honestly just find myself unbearable and want to be gone forever

 

[J1214]

Physical and mental health.

I feel like a complete idiot, disturbed, and frail life form who will eventually become a burden to everyone he knows and cares about.

 

[UnluckyBastard]

I hate my life and have hated my life since I was 8. I'm sick of everything and everyone, but most of all I'm sick of myself and the continuous mistakes I made.

 

[abchia]

Tired of living in this world where I'll never be enough. I'm tired of feeling alone and dead while everyone around me moves forward. There is no rock bottom, its a constant spiral downwards that never ends.

 

[Fragile_]

Stop thinking with your lower chakras mate and leave your forbidden fruit in you and let it rise to your brain and things will change as you'll be in a higher consciousness and you'll be way more intuitive and eat veggies fruit and nuts and your mind will change mate trust me it's fact.. we are all made up of energy...

I know your pain

Yes you're right. But it's way harder to quit than people realize. Maybe I'll make detailed post about this addiction when I'll feel like i really need to vent

 

[outrider567]

Girlfriend of 35 years suddenly died, nothing enjoyable about life anymore

 

[kkiwii]

heartaches. i feel so alone and misunderstood, like nobody will truly understand what ive gone through, what ive done, and who i truly am, and my heart always hurts. it feels like its getting ripped apart every day and i can never make it stop. ofc i have ways of numbing it down (vaping, smoking, sh, and drinking) but it never stops hurting. its so hard to live in constant pain and i just want it to stop.

 

[_Minsk]

health issues, its just maddening and im tired of it. One of the worst ones is tinnitus and recently after I got my shit together and made real progress I got racing heart while I rest + insomnia. Im sure life wants to f with me, no/bad sleep and constant ringing to recharge, thanks thats exactly what I need to achieve anything.. it also let me down a spiral that just keeps on escalating. What a fucked up life man.....

 

[jbear824]

That the world and societies we live in are specifically designed to reward a few, while torturing the rest. And that a majority of the people on earth have been successfully brainwashed to defend that system as the best that humanity has come up with.

 

[schmerz]

i just don't deserve to live. all i do is burden others

 

[4everHeartBroken]

i just don't deserve to live. all i do is burden others

I'm so sorry for your pain.

That the world and societies we live in are specifically designed to reward a few, while torturing the rest. And that a majority of the people on earth have been successfully brainwashed to defend that system as the best that humanity has come up with.

Interesting response. Agreed. Thank you.

 

[ARW3N]

Give Me Liberty or Give Me Death!

 

[mtrx]

i want to say gender dysphoria, but realistically it's because i'm a lazy coward.

 

[Edpal247]

Physical health issues, mental health issues, legal issues. State of the world doesn't help me feel very optimistic either.

 

[DoMore]

Shame... shame of what I've become & the shameful things that I've done to those who I should love the most. More broadly speaking depression and a tiredness of life.

 

[Somethingiswaddling]

How ugly I am. I am so starved of affection, yet even when I get some it's never enough, it'll never be enough.

 

[Trakehner]

Neurodivergence

 

[Silent.Tears]

I know it's never just ONE reason, but it can definitely FEEL like it.

What is your #1 reason that pushes you over the top for not wanting to live anymore?

Thank you for sharing.

My parents

 

[lizzywizzy09]

My life has taken a turn that I refuse to accept, plain and simple.