I've been lurking on here for a while and although i have never felt the desire/necessity to ctb nor suffered from mental illness/health issues, i respect all of your decisions to ctb. I've can relate to many of you guys with a general disinterest in living despite living such a privileged life I've had fleeting moments of joy, and while I understand the philosophy, i've never had the courage myself. but I just wanted to make my first post and wanted to thank everybody here for sharing their stories and being so vulnerable 
