Feel it’s been over long ago

[diealegend24]

I think a few years back after I had a fight with my brother that's when a part of me began to die.

From 2020 up until now each year life kills a part of me. Now looking back all I've been doing these past couple of years is surviving.

Constantly in this cycle of trying to fix something that's wrong with me. Something I believe is stopping me from living the life I want.

Thing is I've never been able to solve or fix anything despite trying my hardest. Been to therapy, tried to do things in real life to push myself and I have so much fuckin knowledge. But I can't change.

I tried, I really did but shit.

My nervous is still stuck in fight or flight, I still ruminate, OCD themes are still present, my self esteem continues to get worse, and life continues to go to shit in some way shape or form.

I guess you could say this is a vent, I'd typically write this in a journal entry. But I want to know if there are people who relate to me.

I'm just surviving and constantly trying to fix stuff that's wrong with me or making miserable.

When my parents pass away I will relinquish all responsibility for myself and others.

I'll become homeless in a big city. I won't eat, drink or do any necessities to
Keep me alive. I'll just wither away and die on the street.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I'm sorry to learn about your plight that you are going through. And you are strong that you are still fighting your circumstances and trying to work it out. Life can be really stubborn at times that no matter how hard we try, things don't change for the better.

I think a few years back after I had a fight with my brother that's when a part of me began to die.

From 2020 up until now each year life kills a part of me. Now looking back all I've been doing these past couple of years is surviving.

Constantly in this cycle of trying to fix something that's wrong with me. Something I believe is stopping me from living the life I want.

Thing is I've never been able to solve or fix anything despite trying my hardest. Been to therapy, tried to do things in real life to push myself and I have so much fuckin knowledge. But I can't change.

I tried, I really did but shit.

My nervous is still stuck in fight or flight, I still ruminate, OCD themes are still present, my self esteem continues to get worse, and life continues to go to shit in some way shape or form.

I guess you could say this is a vent, I'd typically write this in a journal entry. But I want to know if there are people who relate to me.

I'm just surviving and constantly trying to fix stuff that's wrong with me or making miserable.

When my parents pass away I will relinquish all responsibility for myself and others.

I'll become homeless in a big city. I won't eat, drink or do any necessities to
Keep me alive. I'll just wither away and die on the street.

 

[diealegend24]

I'm sorry to learn about your plight that you are going through. And you are strong that you are still fighting your circumstances and trying to work it out. Life can be really stubborn at times that no matter how hard we try, things don't change for the better.

Thank you. I am strong and I want to keep giving it my all for the people around me and my little brother who passed say, but after my parents are gone that's it. I'm done no more

 

[ctb_warrior]

Thank you. I am strong and I want to keep giving it my all for the people around me and my little brother who passed say, but after my parents are gone that's it. I'm done no more

I can totally understand.. And I'm with you in whatever path you decide is right for you
Wish you all the best, and all the love, luck, success and peace in everything that you choose.

As you are trying to work things out, I want to suggest you to go through the articles I have written, telecult power, telepathic mind control, does god sends help, miracle mindset, reiki healing, aurum metallicum.
These articles are based on my own experiences and experiments of 2 decades.
Just in case, these may be helpful in your fight against life to make it better. Go through them when you are relaxed so you can absorb the content