Venting I do not want a job!

[angel164]

one of my biggest reasons to wanting to kill myself.

I have felt shame since I was a child for even entertaining this idea. but because this is a place where I feel comfortable saying this, I will.
I will admit.
I do not want to work, I do not want to have a job, I do not want a career, I don't have a Passion for a career, I do not want any job no matter what it is.

I always think of this saying "what's your dream job?
I do not dream of labor" or something like that.

maybe its a gen z thing, maybe its a mental illness thing and or maybe its something that naturally exists in some of us or all? to different degrees.
after all, capitalism is a human invention, we do not have job applications desire in our DNA..
Maybe its because the system is fucked and it removes anything good that is related to having a job, or maybe I JUST DON'T FUCKING WANT ONE.

I always been ashamed of this, because its embarrassing to me. but.. I would LOVE to live off someone else's money.. but I Cant, because its "selfish"..
but I cannot fathom how not having a job feels like my nature, but it is perceived as sooooo wrong.
its such a childish thing to say right? oh i don't want to work.. and what makes me special that i don't and everyone else does... its so STUPID!! but I don't want to force myself to do it just to be a good person
I will die a " bad person" FUCK IT! I Already am with everything else...

admitting this makes me feel so stupid and so useless, i feel like a bad person like I don't deserve to use any resources or even the air i breath, because I am not contributing to society..
is "contributing to society" really a thing, or just something they say to make us work for the pleasures of the elite.... AAAAHHHH I CANT TAKE IT

having a job in this economy feels so helpless, no matter what we do, we still not going anywhere, we still depressed and we still want to die!
when I was a kid, it seemed that everyone was getting jobs and having their dreams fulfilled and now when I am older, its all shit. and they keep telling me its my fault, maybe it is but is it only my fault, when many feel the same too?

my childhood dream life was travelling... literally.. and because everyone want me to get a "respectable job" well.. i decide i will just die instead, dramatic much?

I cannot have a life without having a job, so it adds on to my 100 other reasons to die.. just a cherry on top
its funny that the reason I am applying now, is so I can resource my suicide attempt.. hey, one good reason to have a job i guess?
I just have to find a job that lasts me enough till I ctb, that's how i will deal with all this misery

I envy people with passion and dreams and desire to work. or are they pretending too?
what about you guys here? what do you work? and do you like working? and others who don't work, do you feel the same? I am so curious

 

[FrostNova]

I have tried lots of things over the past 12 years. I understand where you are coming from and the desire to travel. The times I spent in Europe and Asia were the happiest I had ever been. As part of leading up to the journey, this included getting "good" jobs that other people would like, and I would still dump them the second I had enough money to live for a few months in some random ass country before returning and rinsing and repeating. Even if it meant sleeping in an internet cafe. Some people work for only a year or 2 at a time and then backpack across a whole continent. It is possible to do something similar in an even shorter time frame, depending on what you want to experience or what your goals are. The only thing I have to left to offer is some personal advice: is there any way you can take your own interests or passions and make them a way that you can make any money? It doesn't matter how little. The freedom you desire may include some kind of creative outlook you can take advantage of.

 

[ipmanwc0]

I agree with everything you say capitalism sucks so much. It's natural if you feel shameful about it though since capitalism teaches you that you are worthless if you don't work

 

[Vivissa]

"I am not contributing to society.."
have you ever considered that many ppl that are rich doesn't contribute and furthermore, they leech the society. But because they are rich they are productive.
Im struggling with a job. comparative is a mid fair job, maybe a little below of fair, but not exploitation. However I feel working like the worst thing happening, I would rather prefer to be death. I really feel you.

 

[Pluto]

 

[Mäximum]

admitting this makes me feel so stupid and so useless, i feel like a bad person like I don't deserve to use any resources or even the air i breath, because I am not contributing to society..
is "contributing to society" really a thing, or just something they say to make us work for the pleasures of the elite.... AAAAHHHH I CANT TAKE IT

I feel you. I went to school for five years and these were the worst five years of my life. I told myself that, when I will work, then it has to be something that I really like, that I have a passion for — something that I am interested in. So that when I am getting slaved off, it at least feels enjoyable.

But the thing is, there there is nothing I like. There is nothing I have passion for. And nothing I am interested in. A dead end.

 

[Ultimatefighter]

one of my biggest reasons to wanting to kill myself.

I have felt shame since I was a child for even entertaining this idea. but because this is a place where I feel comfortable saying this, I will.
I will admit.
I do not want to work, I do not want to have a job, I do not want a career, I don't have a Passion for a career, I do not want any job no matter what it is.

I always think of this saying "what's your dream job?
I do not dream of labor" or something like that.

maybe its a gen z thing, maybe its a mental illness thing and or maybe its something that naturally exists in some of us or all? to different degrees.
after all, capitalism is a human invention, we do not have job applications desire in our DNA..
Maybe its because the system is fucked and it removes anything good that is related to having a job, or maybe I JUST DON'T FUCKING WANT ONE.

I always been ashamed of this, because its embarrassing to me. but.. I would LOVE to live off someone else's money.. but I Cant, because its "selfish"..
but I cannot fathom how not having a job feels like my nature, but it is perceived as sooooo wrong.
its such a childish thing to say right? oh i don't want to work.. and what makes me special that i don't and everyone else does... its so STUPID!! but I don't want to force myself to do it just to be a good person
I will die a " bad person" FUCK IT! I Already am with everything else...

admitting this makes me feel so stupid and so useless, i feel like a bad person like I don't deserve to use any resources or even the air i breath, because I am not contributing to society..
is "contributing to society" really a thing, or just something they say to make us work for the pleasures of the elite.... AAAAHHHH I CANT TAKE IT

having a job in this economy feels so helpless, no matter what we do, we still not going anywhere, we still depressed and we still want to die!
when I was a kid, it seemed that everyone was getting jobs and having their dreams fulfilled and now when I am older, its all shit. and they keep telling me its my fault, maybe it is but is it only my fault, when many feel the same too?

my childhood dream life was travelling... literally.. and because everyone want me to get a "respectable job" well.. i decide i will just die instead, dramatic much?

I cannot have a life without having a job, so it adds on to my 100 other reasons to die.. just a cherry on top
its funny that the reason I am applying now, is so I can resource my suicide attempt.. hey, one good reason to have a job i guess?
I just have to find a job that lasts me enough till I ctb, that's how i will deal with all this misery

I envy people with passion and dreams and desire to work. or are they pretending too?
what about you guys here? what do you work? and do you like working? and others who don't work, do you feel the same? I am so curious

I think most of us don't

 

[valar_morghulis21]

one of my biggest reasons to wanting to kill myself.

I have felt shame since I was a child for even entertaining this idea. but because this is a place where I feel comfortable saying this, I will.
I will admit.
I do not want to work, I do not want to have a job, I do not want a career, I don't have a Passion for a career, I do not want any job no matter what it is.

I always think of this saying "what's your dream job?
I do not dream of labor" or something like that.

maybe its a gen z thing, maybe its a mental illness thing and or maybe its something that naturally exists in some of us or all? to different degrees.
after all, capitalism is a human invention, we do not have job applications desire in our DNA..
Maybe its because the system is fucked and it removes anything good that is related to having a job, or maybe I JUST DON'T FUCKING WANT ONE.

I always been ashamed of this, because its embarrassing to me. but.. I would LOVE to live off someone else's money.. but I Cant, because its "selfish"..
but I cannot fathom how not having a job feels like my nature, but it is perceived as sooooo wrong.
its such a childish thing to say right? oh i don't want to work.. and what makes me special that i don't and everyone else does... its so STUPID!! but I don't want to force myself to do it just to be a good person
I will die a " bad person" FUCK IT! I Already am with everything else...

admitting this makes me feel so stupid and so useless, i feel like a bad person like I don't deserve to use any resources or even the air i breath, because I am not contributing to society..
is "contributing to society" really a thing, or just something they say to make us work for the pleasures of the elite.... AAAAHHHH I CANT TAKE IT

having a job in this economy feels so helpless, no matter what we do, we still not going anywhere, we still depressed and we still want to die!
when I was a kid, it seemed that everyone was getting jobs and having their dreams fulfilled and now when I am older, its all shit. and they keep telling me its my fault, maybe it is but is it only my fault, when many feel the same too?

my childhood dream life was travelling... literally.. and because everyone want me to get a "respectable job" well.. i decide i will just die instead, dramatic much?

I cannot have a life without having a job, so it adds on to my 100 other reasons to die.. just a cherry on top
its funny that the reason I am applying now, is so I can resource my suicide attempt.. hey, one good reason to have a job i guess?
I just have to find a job that lasts me enough till I ctb, that's how i will deal with all this misery

I envy people with passion and dreams and desire to work. or are they pretending too?
what about you guys here? what do you work? and do you like working? and others who don't work, do you feel the same? I am so curious

I relate deeply with you. I'm also anti-work myself and live off my parents' money. Once they gone I'll kill myself so I don't have to deal with all this financial bullshit. Most of the times I'm crippling with guilt from being unemployed, but I probably should snap out of it and make the most out of my fortunate situation while I can. Travel, buy games, buy foods, etc. I have always been very frugal and only recently started to buy nice things to distract my deteriorating mental state.

Used to be one of those people aspire to have a prestigious career, realize they are just living in delusions and ignorance, and participate in consumerism. I wish I could unsee and unlearn about capitalism so I could live in peace like them. I realize the only way out is I kill myself after so many failed attempt to change both myself and the surroundings.

 

[passthisnote]

one of my biggest reasons to wanting to kill myself.

I have felt shame since I was a child for even entertaining this idea. but because this is a place where I feel comfortable saying this, I will.
I will admit.
I do not want to work, I do not want to have a job, I do not want a career, I don't have a Passion for a career, I do not want any job no matter what it is.

I always think of this saying "what's your dream job?
I do not dream of labor" or something like that.

maybe its a gen z thing, maybe its a mental illness thing and or maybe its something that naturally exists in some of us or all? to different degrees.
after all, capitalism is a human invention, we do not have job applications desire in our DNA..
Maybe its because the system is fucked and it removes anything good that is related to having a job, or maybe I JUST DON'T FUCKING WANT ONE.

I always been ashamed of this, because its embarrassing to me. but.. I would LOVE to live off someone else's money.. but I Cant, because its "selfish"..
but I cannot fathom how not having a job feels like my nature, but it is perceived as sooooo wrong.
its such a childish thing to say right? oh i don't want to work.. and what makes me special that i don't and everyone else does... its so STUPID!! but I don't want to force myself to do it just to be a good person
I will die a " bad person" FUCK IT! I Already am with everything else...

admitting this makes me feel so stupid and so useless, i feel like a bad person like I don't deserve to use any resources or even the air i breath, because I am not contributing to society..
is "contributing to society" really a thing, or just something they say to make us work for the pleasures of the elite.... AAAAHHHH I CANT TAKE IT

having a job in this economy feels so helpless, no matter what we do, we still not going anywhere, we still depressed and we still want to die!
when I was a kid, it seemed that everyone was getting jobs and having their dreams fulfilled and now when I am older, its all shit. and they keep telling me its my fault, maybe it is but is it only my fault, when many feel the same too?

my childhood dream life was travelling... literally.. and because everyone want me to get a "respectable job" well.. i decide i will just die instead, dramatic much?

I cannot have a life without having a job, so it adds on to my 100 other reasons to die.. just a cherry on top
its funny that the reason I am applying now, is so I can resource my suicide attempt.. hey, one good reason to have a job i guess?
I just have to find a job that lasts me enough till I ctb, that's how i will deal with all this misery

I envy people with passion and dreams and desire to work. or are they pretending too?
what about you guys here? what do you work? and do you like working? and others who don't work, do you feel the same? I am so curious

i don't like working cuz it wastes my time that's really it honestly i would rather die than be a wagecuck who can't even do what i want anymore

 

[Defatigatis]

For real..
Most people cannot understand that because their minds is trained for slavery. And even if things get better, they probably won't know what to do, and chances are that they will somehow screw things up and end returning to the same state as before.

 

[Musiclover338]

get on neetbucks then go to reddit/ r/ neet ask how to get on disability its only like 1k a month, i cant survive on 1k a month and its hard to get, but alot of people have it and dont work anymore.

eh i rather have a shit job than live off 1k a month i have a car to pay for and want to live on my own + not disabled enough to qualify with adhd autism

 

[watergun88]

i used to be like this too, i want myself to be passionate at something, but feel stuck.

but what u need i think is adversity... but be very very careful of what u wish for....... sometime adversity will very very very easily turn to destruction....

if you dont want destruction, you can read a story in the bible about the 'the Parable of the Talents' ,

and switch the money in the story into the time you have on earth instead . then u will understand.

 

[tomame]

what do you care to do instead? honey .. one cannot get out of work .. i can assure you even homeless people don't. trust me .. being homeless was more stressful than any job i've ever had .. and living off a guy and the abuse that came with that was a close second. or is a close second.

i got hired at mcdonald's today and i can't wait to "escape" this guy who is taking care of me .. but, draining the life out of me

a job will drain me less .. and do more for me! i just pray my mental illness doesn't ruin it for me again.

idle hands are the devil's playground. perhaps find a job you like or strive for a career you like .. you may be surprised

 

[cvury]

don't feel guilt or shame for not wanting/having a job. you were brought into this world against your will, you did not consent to be born. so for you to follow what society tells u is normal is just silly. don't feel bad.

 

[MrMegalomaniac]

I relate so much to your disinterest in pursuing a career and wanting to work.
You're not a "bad person" for not conforming to societal expectations, and you have nothing to be ashamed of.
You're "expected" not only to accept and deal with the fact you've been brought into an existence you had no choice in, but also to accept being a wage slave for the remainder of your life.
Everything about "contributing to society" is a lie, a pretext and excuse to make you feel guilty if you don't abide by the norm.
In my view, it's sociological manipulation, you're literally presented with a premise you're not expected to question (That being that you NEED to "contribute" to society) and that if you don't, there's something "wrong" with you.
We should be allowed to question these foundations.
Is toiling away at some job really the point of life? Is it what you want to do with life, if you want to do anything with it at all.
It's your life and your decision is your own.
Obviously your decisions can impact society, but I don't believe in an inherent negative of simply refusing to engage in this pointless slaving away at some job that brings you nothing positive, but only exhaustion and depression.
The only reason I still work is because of certain benefits I have at my position and it isn't always exhausting, the second either of these stops being true I'm not afraid of getting out.