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Ggimgone

New Member
Aug 20, 2022
3
Apathy, I really don't care. It's how I generally feel. I'm working and studying, I could have a future, but it doesn't seem to matter, in the sense that relationships with people aren't worthy of pursuing, that culture sucks, that life perhaps in general has been horrible for mankind, that we are condemned until death frees us. Maybe it's all a test and the afterlife is good, God is what keeps me from killing myself, I see how I feel reflected in the Bible, Ecclesiastes, etc. and think it might hold the answer to all of this, so I keep struggling
 
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whywere

Visionary
Jun 26, 2020
2,664
Happiness, as I have been so very busy with work and have not been on SS for over a month and I truly missed each and every member. Everyone here is like family to/for me, as I have no family nor friends, and I care and love everyone here.

Walter
 
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whywere

Visionary
Jun 26, 2020
2,664
Despair, doom, pain, loneliness
Howdy!

Sending you lots of huge hugs, smiles, sunny days with bright blue skies and the knowledge that you are a loving, caring spirit.

I have 24/7 chronic pain and I can really relate to the pain aspect.

You are family to me, and I truly care about you and want the best for you.

Walter
 
Teddybear

Teddybear

Specialist
Nov 20, 2021
335
I thought about the time the neighborhood kids chased me around the playground and down the street, yelling "Nigger" and "Son of the monkeyman" all the way.

And my mommy dearest always insisting: "You *must* have done something to provoke them!"

Yeah, I was still breathing, that provoked them.

In moments like these I get a lustful feeling about dying. The mere thought of it fills me with joy and pleasure.

But if anyone called me the 'N' word at that second, I'd kill him in an instant.
 

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