Venting feelings of insecurity and shame about expressing feelings

[NotUrDream]

Does expressing your feelings make you feel a bit insecure or embarrassed, too? Whether I'm online or trying to talk to someone in person, I always look for an opening to share a little of what I'm feeling, but I can't help feeling uncomfortable with myself for being so genuine and intense about it whenever I get the chance. I grew up with "friends" who constantly threw it in my face that I was needy or an idiot, and that I just seemed to be craving attention whenever I spoke about my feelings. Ever since then, I've felt ashamed and insecure about what people think of me and my emotions. On top of that, I struggle to express myself properly, I never seem to find the right words at the right time, and it stresses me out so much.

 

[vibri]

Your friends in the past are dickheads, I'm sorry. :( You're allowed to express yourself just like anyone else in this world. But I also understand the struggle to communicate... Struggling to find the right way to explain something happens to me a lot and it's so frustrating. Try not to be hard on yourself when this happens... it's totally understandable to feel stress when you experienced that.