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turnoverover

消えかけた衛星信号
Oct 2, 2023
26
told myself i wouldnt cry for two months now because its a migraine trigger. brok down crying in my workplaces bathroom today and hugged myself and even now my breathing is uneven and theres silent tears that i cant stop. i haveso little people left in my life ive given up o suicide grief therapy for my best friend and day after day i hate myself even more. the futility of trying at all makes me cry
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
I'm sorry you are going through this. The lack of any control over life is what made me cry today
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,796
I was dusting the bookshelf the other day and picked up the wooden box where we keep my dogs ashes. I teared up a bit thinking of him.
 
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Little_Suzy

Little_Suzy

Amphibious
May 1, 2023
939
Friday, when I cut up an onion to make pico de gallo for my eggs.
 
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_Gollum_

_Gollum_

Formerly Alexei_Kirillov
Mar 9, 2024
1,671
Heartache from someone I haven't spoken to in 7 months and haven't been in regular contact with for 1.5 years
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,598
Heartbreak and stress
 
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gingerhoneysoul

gingerhoneysoul

New Member
May 22, 2024
4
How things never seem to get better and suicidal ideation always finds a way back into my life for the past 10 years.
 
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theblueveil

theblueveil

Rock bottom; still I keep falling.
Jul 15, 2024
13
I'm sorry for your struggling, you deserve much better. I cry every time I have to shower because of the body I'm trapped in, so probably that today. 💙
 
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badtothebone

Experienced
Aug 20, 2024
248
since the day I lost my son! I cry every day and if I'm not working all day like a switch on and off. To live with this pain is just impossible and then on the other hand I have my 2 younger children so I feel trapped. I'm just asking myself, if there is God, why he let bad things happened to a child and give all this pain to his mother. I used to get up in the middle of the night go to his room to cover him and now I go to his room but it's empty. How I'm I suppose to live without my son? That's why I cry memories triggers guilt angry you name it. I'm just so angry I don't want to live anymore.
 
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destinationlosangel

destinationlosangel

Specialist
Feb 16, 2024
300
When i look at the mess my life has become and also when i think about my friend who died
 
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Not Today Satan

Not Today Satan

I’ll survive even if it kills me
May 9, 2024
911
I couldn't find my harness for rock climbing. It turned out to be under a jacket. I was already really stressed from moving and that was kinda the straw that broke the camel's back.
 
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deathtakeme

deathtakeme

Npc
Aug 9, 2024
31
I had a dream for the first time in years. It was the inner child in me being set free from me by the angel of death. I have a couple of tears for her but they're getting scarce. I think I owe her death.
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,683
I don't remember the last time I cried.
 
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sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
794
since the day I lost my son! I cry every day and if I'm not working all day like a switch on and off. To live with this pain is just impossible and then on the other hand I have my 2 younger children so I feel trapped. I'm just asking myself, if there is God, why he let bad things happened to a child and give all this pain to his mother. I used to get up in the middle of the night go to his room to cover him and now I go to his room but it's empty. How I'm I suppose to live without my son? That's why I cry memories triggers guilt angry you name it. I'm just so angry I don't want to live anymore.
I cry about my mom feeling like you a lot. I'm sorry. I hope you find someone peace somehow
 
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VoidedExistence

Student
Dec 6, 2023
105
There is nothing in my life to cry about other than my shit life itself. I cried a while little back after being numb for some months.
 
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nobob

Member
Aug 9, 2024
28
I get injected with antipsychotic drugs every month. They make me unable to cry.
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,802
Life.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,409
The last time I cried was a couple months ago when I saw the movie If. I made a thread about too. Basically, I cried not because the scenes were emotionally compelling or anything, but because I was actually mad and upset that I never got to have any Imaginary Friends of my own to help heal my personal trauma or whatever the fuck this extremely mid movie was supposed to be about.
 
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badtothebone

Experienced
Aug 20, 2024
248
I cry about my mom feeling like you a lot. I'm sorry. I hope you find someone peace somehow
Thank you so much! And I'm sorry about your loss im sorry too u hope we reunite with them again
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
I don't know if it's recent but I cried over 2 weeks ago due to having remembered about how I got bullied in school. I tend to not remember anything about my childhood but I was talking to somebody about this topic which made the memories flood back. I honestly wished that I cried over something more substantial happening in my life such as how I have anhedonia or migranes almost everyday or panic attacks over the human condition and so on
 
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L'absent

L'absent

Banned
Aug 18, 2024
1,390
The disappearance of my love and the fact that I will never be able to talk to him, kiss him, hug him again. The emptiness is inside me. And now everyone takes advantage of it to treat me badly because I'm alone and because he was my strength. This world is bad, it's horrible.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
The last time I cried was because I missed my childhood and wished that I could be a kid again. I hate being an adult. Adulthood is literally slavery. If I had my way, I would've stayed a kid forever and never grown up. There's nothing good about being an adult and it's unfair that I was forced to become one
 
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lizzywizzy09

Arcanist
May 11, 2024
460
The same thing that makes me cry everyday. I basically killed myself years ago and I'm just existing now.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,133
The pain and torment of existing would be enough, it truly is so painful to exist and I'm tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence with no way to just fall into an eternal sleep and never suffer again.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,974
Almost every day I get some tears, thinking about my girlfriend's death, she loved life so much
 
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esistzeit

INFINITY
Jul 17, 2024
118
The day before yesterday, the realization that this may all be in vain made me cry. If there's nothing after death, then I just came here to suffer? What's the point? If I think logically, there is no point, it just is.

That made me shed tears.
 
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FriesLovee

FriesLovee

Member
Aug 23, 2024
59
The thing that makes me cry instantly is when I have vision of my family seing me dead and then crying . That's one thing that automatically makes me cry or when I see a picture of myself as a kid happy and I tell myself how did that smiley innocent kid turned into this . Makes me rethink for a bit but then I just become depressed again
 
SteamaHorns

SteamaHorns

Member
Aug 2, 2024
88
Last time I cried was about two weeks ago. Was pretty stressed out by something that came up and it made me remember that despite how tired I am, I do want to live and somehow seek out my dreams but know that even if I was faced with another chance alongside newfound hope, that I'd be too tired and scared to actually take it anymore. The idea of having realistic hope and a chance to turn things around scares me more than my current situation of knowing that there is none. The fact that I'll have to put in work if I have hope terrifies me which is honestly pretty stupid and funny to me because I never would've imagined a sentiment like this to ever exist.
 
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,197
Not being able to get hired no matter how hard I try, veering towards homelessness, literally cried 20 minutes ago.
 
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PixelPlant

PixelPlant

smile, you’ve lived :)
Aug 15, 2023
128
childhood trauma memory
 
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