i'm a big cryer but... one big thing that happened today and i think is a good example is that i was looking for something in my dad's car, and I found a very old keychain I handmade when i was 3 years old or so. Not only he still keeps it, he keeps it in a place that's always close to him and travels with him.
He keeps the decades old thing with him, memory of when I was ok, but many years later I'm now full of illnesses and my future is bleak. I know he'll help as much as possible to bring a future back to me, but I'm not sure yet if I have the strength in me to see if I'll finally get through all of these diagnoses or if i'll not be able to bear the pain anymore.