Discussion How often do you cry? Are you be able of crying at all?

[valar_morghulis21]

It's 4 in the morning where I am now. Just make myself a bowl of yogurt in the kitchen and thinking about my parents. My dad just successfully went through a surgery to remove his pre-cancerous tissues. But it was his third time so the doctors said we must await further examination.

I don't really cry anymore, cause what's the point? Crying doesn't gonna change anything. But goddamn, it just hits me how completely alone in this world I am. Once my parents pass away, especially my mom, it's just gonna me versus the world. I wish I could call her up but we are in different countries and she's at work right now.

I've been playing Dave the Diver and watching "Don't trust the B in apartment 23" to numb whatever feelings I have, which is not alot in the first place. But yeah, staring down the yogurt bowl, thinking about my mom getting older, and what I am even doing with my life living in a foreign city that doesn't even want me here. My depression doesn't get better when I back at home, but at least I know I have my mom beside me. She's all I have, no matter how complicated our relationship are. Nature is fucking cruel man, for making moms mortal just like the rest of us. I never hug her, nor tell her I love her in my whole life, but I would give up my existence so she could turn back time and end up with a life happier than this.

Wonder how often do you folks cry? Does it come sudden like me?

 

[StupidGirl001]

I never cry. I may be 2 seconds from cbt and and only feel numb (it may not help.that I've been imagining my death from a very long time).

Sometimes, tho, I explode for the most random shits, usually a bad grade (studying is what I use to distract myself) and in front of people! It's so stupid. I'm stupid. But hey it's not like I'll live long enough to care about any of that.

 

[Secro]

I only cry when I watch an anime, for example Charlotte and Angel Beats, but otherwise I'm emotionally numb.

 

[smirks00ts]

I barely cry nowadays. used to cry more when I was younger and mainly to force myself to sleep now I barely feel anything. I kinda hate it.

 

[kivacs-rei]

I tend to not cry for months, or even a year/s, and then it all kind of comes like a (brief) flood.

But usually when I cry it's somewhere that is "safe", like home alone without pets or people, or in the car by myself, a few times in therapy. It lasts from 1-10 minutes and then i just sort of sit up and am back to... whatever my normal is. It's a switch I guess

 

[fluorescentpearl]

I cry often, I cry for things that dont have life and I cry for people that suffer and I cry at mild inconveniences and I cry at big inconveniences, and I cry when I'm happy and I cry when I'm mad.. Recently I cry a bit less I think mostly because I got used to it and have given up a bit, I live in a place w 0 privacy where you're expected to hold all emotions in 24/7 so yeah

 

[DriftingToOblivion]

I think I cried twice in ten years. It's funny, most days I am not capable of crying if I wanted to, but when it comes I cannot stop it.

The first time I unexpectedly fell in love. I grew close with a friend, we would have coffee together at work, we reached the point we could tell each other anything. This developed over years.

We just couldn't tell our spouses. I didn't think this could happen while married. It did.

It all came crashing down eventually and I fell on the floor uncontrollably sobbing.

The second time my daughter came home to visit. I love my daughter even though she is a deeply flawed person. But she is a feeling person and I think that is what I love and admire about her. Well she doesn't get along with her mom. They had a huge fight, lots of screaming which ended with my daughter grabbing her bags and running out the door. More uncontrollable sobbing.

I live most days just numb. Alcohol helps the numbing somewhat.

I wish I could cry more.

 

[awarmnonexistence]

I only cry when I watch an anime, for example Charlotte and Angel Beats, but otherwise I'm emotionally numb

Yeah wow same for me, when I think about my own life and existence, I don't get any real emotions apart a sense of disappointment, a slight headache, and the feeling of "I should get out of here cause it only gets worse from here".

I'm really apathetic towards my personal situation and even the people around me, as shitty as that sounds. How could I cry for a life that is more of a huge boring pain-in-the-ass that I never asked for, than it is some emotionally captivating tragic storyline?

I watched cyberpunk edgerunners last week and I think I cried more tears over that series than I have over my own life in a whole decade lol
Similarly I listen to music and the only reason I would get really emotional during a song is if it's taking me somewhere else, to a world far away from this one, not if it relates to my own life.

I guess the tears can only start flowing for some of us when the weight of being in our own lives is lifted?

 

[telekon]

the only time I cry is when I get seriously close to pulling the trigger which is how I know im probably not ready to end it

 

[Dandelion's]

I cry everytime I am happy but then remember how pathetic I am