i’m a victim of covert incest

[emptywings]

guys , i'm a victim of emotional incest. when my parents split up, they both went through really bad depression and ended up relying on me when I was just a kid.

my mom wanted to ctb. she'd cry in the bathroom and hit the walls, and I'd just be there scared, holding my phone, waiting to call an ambulance if something happened. my dad would tell me about every single problem he had with the women he dated. even now, he's with someone and still tells me about all their fights and personal/intimate stuff.

i basically always had to know everything they said to each other. I even had to hide from his partners that he missed my mom and couldn't stop thinking about her.

my mom kept hurting herself too, and she'd argue with her partner about it right in front of me. eventually they broke up, she had another child, and I ended up taking care of him for a long time because she was depressed.
over time, she started keeping me away from my friends from school so i could take care of the house and my brother.

all of that hurt so fucking much. i guess that's why I am the way I am. i know they love me, I really do.

but I'm just so fucking tired

 

[RazzleDazzle]

Getting away from my family helped me a lot in some ways, but it's also rough going through life without any emotional or practical support from other people. This stuff is hard.