Discussion What Do You Hate More: The World or Yourself?

[escape_from_hell]

The universe/hell has made it clear I am the one who needs the hating from any possible perspective of philosophical desert.
As part of the torture I'm not allowed to know exactly why I deserve that because that may allow some type of peace of mind or meditative loophole for escape. Effort must also be induced for an extra dimension of suffering, and it comes in waves where there are rest periods to force one to try--thereby increasing the guilt shame and suffering.

I think some of us were selected as like evil versions of Jesus or something, meant to be nature's urinal but without the virtue aspect. Instead just existing as the concept that deserves all suffering to alleviate the rest so that they may enjoy heaven, except to make it complete we must also be spat upon to provide bullying pleasures to the heaven-beings.

 

[Roadrunner]

Myself, and my inability to find a way to be happy. Lots of people are, so I think my problem is me!

 

[yellowjester]

Myself. Although the worrld gave birth to me, so I can't absolve ot of all guilt.

 

[demitriusmigsysvotf]

I hate myself much more than the world. For me it`s only my fault why people treat me like they do.

 

[untothedepths]

Myself. I screw up all the time. I don't even know if I can ever be anyone if I can't even trust myself. I'm scared. I have no survival skills. No matter what choices I make they are always going to be the wrong ones, because I'll always be wrong, even if its the right choice, it can only be good from others.

I was right. I've screwed up again, don't know how. I need to be purged.

 

[jbear824]

That is a deadlocked tie lol. But I hope the earth is destroyed at some point soon in our future. Here's hoping Apophis changes it's course just enough to hit us in 2029

 

[Defenestration]

I hate my mental illness

 

[brokeandbroken]

Years ago I wanted to ctb because I hated myself but now I don't anymore.

I really hate the world and life in general, it's like humans weren't made for this world.

I hate how little help I've gotten in my situation. Completely fixable. Pretty easy to in all honesty. In fact it's only gotten complex because of how long it's taken. It's just impossible for me to fix. Yet so so so many have basically said fuck you no. That that breaks my heart. Even my family basically just fuck you, you are nothing. Piece of shit. No faith. So yeah the world. Humanity. Whatever. Though I can't say I like myself much either.

 

[RollingGiant]

The world, easy. The main reason I've got crippling, painful depression is that I can't stop thinking about how full of shit people are and how I'll never life a good life because of that

 

[lonely and depresse]

Years ago I wanted to ctb because I hated myself but now I don't anymore.

I really hate the world and life in general, it's like humans weren't made for this world.

Both of them equally

 

[glitteryaliens]

Myself. I feel myself becoming more and more bitter towards the world as I sink lower and lower into depression. But ultimately, it's not the world's fault I fucked my own life up. It's not the world's fault I'm a socially awkward agoraphobe. It's not the world's fault that there are people that are my age or younger who are way, way more talented and accomplished than me.

 

[Marie France]

Le monde. Mais j'ai l'impression de m'aimer de moins en moins

 

[nymb]

both, i hate my emphaty and i hate people who used my emphaty

 

[ninfanatic]

I hate myself, what was done to me, and how I was affected by a garbage person.

 

[tobeornot]

Both

 

[Not A Fan]

Definitely the world, but only because it has humans. Without us, I think this place would be pretty nice.

I had to think about it for a few minutes, as to whether I hate myself. I've definitely felt like that at times, for certain things. But I always place my artistic integrity ahead of my material interests. If one has to become toxic to thrive in a toxic world, maybe it is better not to thrive. One thing I feel relatively confident of, is that I wasted less time than the average person. I tried to do things according to the values that were relevant to me, as much as possible. And definitely tried to learn as much as possible, even now still learning and discovering new things every day. Even if I ended up having to do much of it alone because my interests are so different from the people around me. Even with a somewhat abbreviated lifespan, I feel like I could have done a whole lot worse.

I couldn't defeat mediocrity, but I think my real cause of death will be from resisting against it. I don't feel like that's something I need to feel ashamed about.

 

[bitofftoomuch]

Normally I'd say the world. But in light of my recent mistakes, the self-loathing is presently much higher.

 

[thealteredmind]

I don't hate the world
I hate my body and brain. not exactly myself, I'm just a victim.

 

[Moniker]

Maybe I like myself a bit less than the typical person would. I view myself as easily replaceable and remarkably unimportant, but I wouldn't call that hating myself.

You know, it's pretty hard to make a case for not hating the entire world. It's shockingly easy to make a case for the opposite though!

 

[starsitting]

myself. 10000% me

 

[zombiegirl]

i hate the evil parts of the world, but i dont hate myself cuz im awesome

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Maybe I like myself a bit less than the typical person would. I view myself as easily replaceable and remarkably unimportant, but I wouldn't call that hating myself.

I'm the same in this regard. I also think I'm easily replaceable and unimportant but that isn't me hating myself (though normies would insist otherwise). This is me just being realistic. Nobody is as important as they say they are especially when we'll all die and be forgotten anyway

 

[Ironborn]

A little from column A, a little from column B.

 

[m1ll1pede]

Not the whole world but humanity.

 

[Arachno]

I hate myself, there are many things I dislike about the current state of the world and humanity, but I don't hate them as a whole. I hate myself more, most of my problems are my fault, result of my incompetence.

 

[spiralling]

Definitely myself.

 

[prone2fury]

The world is irredeemably awful but that's kind of a given, a fact that all adults have to reckon with if they wanna persist in it. The problem for me lies in that most people are able to get through life without being suicidal, but I was not. This is in addition to my countless other failures.

To hate the holistic world feels like hating pain or war. It's in the world's nature to be awful. War and tyranny and evil have existed since the dawn of civilization while concepts like equality and not being a serf are relatively new. So I can't really blame the world very much because it has demonstrated that it cannot operate any other way.

That's why normies say you cannot change the world, only your reaction to it. Because it is the truth. And the only fault is mine for being exceptionally lazy and weak in the face of everything. If thousands of normies can survive, why do I struggle so much? That's why I have more hate for myself than everything else. I cannot wageslave without cracking mentally and letting it negatively impact my output. Why wouldn't I hate myself more?

 

[cait_sith]

i wish I could project all my anger outwardly . Hating the world would be a lot more healthy, there are people who can thrive with hating the world, carving out their own niche, finding like-minded people that they start relationships with, and develop a strong sense of self-worth by putting themselves above the sheep. Hating the world really can be a source of confidence, but it somehow doesn't work for me as I can't stop hating myself no matter how fucked-up the world and people are getting. I go through circles where I project my anger outwardly but always come back to me, my self-hatered sadly has been there long before I realised how horrible the world is and it getting stronger and stronger despite my hate for the world. If I could measure hate, hating myself outweighs everything, despite its the worst thing anyone can feel. I shouldn't really have a reason to hate myself so much but I can't stop, it's fully automated in my brain, no matter how petty the mistake, I'm always in the verge of punching myself to death.

 

[MaximusDecimus]

Without a doubt myself. I can't say I was dealt a bad hand in life overall. I was just too stupid and threw away most of my opportunities and chances.

 

[item]

Why should I hate myself, this life took me without my consent and dragged me trough all sorts of trauma and pain. Life is the problem to me