I hate being conscious

[bl33ding_heart]

I hate having to be awake. I get disappointed when I wake up and have to actually be conscious for an entire day. Because the entirety of that day will just be me feeling like shit and not having the energy to do anything. My heart feels heavy, and it feels like the weight of my heart is weighing down my entire body and my ability to even exist. Just like the last this entire year so far has just been filled with suffering for me. It's like fate will give me hopes of a better life and then just pull it away like it's nothing and laugh in my face.

 

[pieceoffox]

I feel exactly the same. I just want to sleep all the time. Every time I go to bed, I hope I never have to wake up again. I'm so sorry you're going through the same thing. I hope you feel better

 

[plskilme]

I also feel this way. I just wish I could sleep and never wake up. Or be in a coma for long enough for them to decide to pull the plug.

 

[here_for_now]

yep being awake is just chronic pain galore for me or constant anxiety ridden thoughts

 

[The Eternal One]

I'm obsessed with sleeping and how good it feels. Having the ability to become lucid in dreams is a major plus, too. Nevertheless, it doesn't matter if I dream or not during the night, the feeling is always so blissful. Even nightmares don't feel that bad.
Meanwhile, being awake feels like an extended needless useless torture. Absolute horror.

So, I think on some level I get how you're feeling and I'm really sorry you're suffering this way. I hope it completely goes away one day. Wishing you well. ♥

 

[dragonofenvy]

I love sleeping. It's the only time I'm at peace. Sometimes I have dreams. Some aren't fun (related to my C-PTSD) but they're much rarer now, and lately I've been having some pretty entertaining ones that I've been able to have control over like I'm directing a movie. Even the bad dreams don't compare to being awake. I wish I could sleep forever.

I'm sorry that you too are suffering in the same way I, and the previous posters are. I hope some day that it can be alleviated, even just a little bit.