bl33ding_heart
Borderline
- Jun 24, 2025
- 842
Being abandoned by someone I deeply love truly feels like it's all over. They never truly understand the depth of my feelings. They always doubt the extent of my suffering. But that doesn't change how agonising it feels. I wish it did, because it genuinely feels like I'll die every time. The feelings are so intense and consuming it feels like I'll die from pure devastation before I even get the chance to kill myself. It's a feelings only other people with bpd will mostly be able to understand. It's a pain we will never be able to fully get used to. And it's something that takes the lives of many of us borderlines all the time. And I'm pretty certain it will take mine too someday. I hate how my life will never truly be mine. My life will always belong to someone else, and I will never be able to have full control. It's just so fucking unfair. How can I be cursed with such a terrible fate all because the people that raised me couldn't treat me right. I just want my life to be mine and not someone else's. I wanna be able to have purpose in life outside of a specific person. Especially when that specific person seems so out of reach.
