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HopeIsLost

Game Over
Oct 2, 2020
55
I'm planning to ctb today or tonight.

I already have some things I want to do for my last day. Like take my last shower, take a very very slow walk and just live in the moment and enjoy it, listen to my favorite songs, but that's about it.

I want to do more than just that which is why I'm asking this question.

I want to make my final moments enjoyable. I haven't been happy for years and I want my final moments to make me genuinely happy.

So I would like to know what things I could do to make it enjoyable and meaningful.

Perhaps someone could tell me how they're going to spend their final moments to help me decide on what to do with mine.

And please don't hate on me for this. I know I should already know what to do with my final moments and how to make them enjoyable. However I suffer badly with dissociation and lost my self with trauma and depression.

I really just want my final moments to actually be something. That's really all I want.
 
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Trayus

Member
Oct 3, 2020
73
Well here is what i will do on the final day: Visit some animal shelter, pet some dogs and cats. Go home, hug my favourite stuffed animal and then CTB.

Thats the plan at least...
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,024
Your favorite things are very specific to you, so see and do the things you enjoy most. Perhaps grab your favorite snacks and rewatch your favorite movies.
 
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HopeIsLost

Game Over
Oct 2, 2020
55
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Jumper Geo

Jumper Geo

Life's a bitch and then you die.
Feb 23, 2020
2,910
Its never to late to write a bucket list and complete it, sex drugs and rock and roll springs to mind, sorry you are in this situation and want to CTB, you've only been here for a few days so if you think of something you really want to do before CTB do it, don't worry if you have to postpone for a while, I hope you find the peace your searching for best of luck.

Cheers

Geo
 
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HopeIsLost

Game Over
Oct 2, 2020
55
Its never to late to write a bucket list and complete it, sex drugs and rock and roll springs to mind, sorry you are in this situation and want to CTB, you've only been here for a few days so if you think of something you really want to do before CTB do it, don't worry if you have to postpone for a while, I hope you find the peace your searching for best of luck.

Cheers

Geo
You're right. Thank you so much.
 
AJ95

AJ95

24/7 sylvia plath
Sep 3, 2020
478
Get a massage, eat your favourite meal, cuddle your favourite toy, picture a happy memory, spray your favourite perfume, snuggle under the covers, think about a time when you were happy.
 
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Sk1n1M1n

Experienced
Jan 29, 2020
282
Or have a bucket list of things you want to do, like a movie marathon, watch your favourite tv shows back to back for full 48 hours, eat and drink something you haven't had in a long time, lay in your bed and listen to music in your favourite pjs, smoke weed, get completely pissed, have mindless passionate sex.
 
mathieu

mathieu

Enlightened
Jun 5, 2019
1,091
Maybe do some drugs. Personally I'm not doing anything special. I just want to go. Don't care how I spend my last hours really. I will give my dog a hug before I do it.
 
Rn110bg101

Rn110bg101

I want to go home
Apr 18, 2019
413
I'll play my favourite videogame, the number of depends on the time I have (might have to skip sleep the day I do it), schedule my email note, maybe I'll have a plush by my side while I do it (but I'm scared of ruining it…)
 
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Sk1n1M1n

Experienced
Jan 29, 2020
282
How about waiting longer till your dog passes away? My dog is what's keeping me on this earth at the moment.
 
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NeverGoodEnuff

Specialist
Sep 28, 2020
398
This is difficult because if I was doing something I enjoyed, I wouldn't want to CTB. Except I do like shooting my gun so maybe...
 
StateOfMind

StateOfMind

Liberty or Death
Apr 30, 2020
1,195
This is difficult because if I was doing something I enjoyed, I wouldn't want to CTB. Except I do like shooting my gun so maybe...
Ive had this problem.
To get myself in the mood I would drink but when its a little too much I don't want to ctb anymore cause I'm happy.
Very annoying lol
 
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NeverGoodEnuff

Specialist
Sep 28, 2020
398
"Very annoying", lol! Yep. I don't drink much but when I do it has the opposite effect, I get depressed.
 
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