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WhatPowerIs

WhatPowerIs

Enlightened
Jun 19, 2022
1,012
Abuse from my family when I was younger. And just recently I am learning that I will be stuck mediocre forever and I will never, ever have the life I want.
 
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Exact Change

Exact Change

A life of mistakes
Nov 6, 2022
175
It wasn't a single moment but rather a growing urge. I've been worn down over the years. And the more the US goes down the toilet, the more ctb makes sense.

I'm am so sorry for your circumstance. My issues seem to pale in comparison.
 
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bipbapbop

Experienced
Mar 7, 2024
276
I have always had a mild case of depression and PTSD. My first attempt was at 8 years old and I spent adolescence drugged up without my consent until I was about 19. I met my partner around that time and he really brought me so much life and ability to function that I'm now in an extremely high pressure prestigious academic environment. Unfortunately its too much pressure for our relationship and he left me in December because honestly we're just two scared kids trying hard to prove ourselves to a cruel world.

It all came crashing down last year slowly throughout the summer (job, school, marriage) and I realized that I am just too tired to keep going.

TL;DR: trauma and burnout
 
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brokeandbroken

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2023
1,118
What broke you to the point of suicide and joining SS?

For me, my daughter died in a horrible accident. My partner committed suicide two weeks later. That was almost 5 years ago and I'm still stuck in the same place I was after they died. I've been extremely suicidal since and I just can't take this for much longer but I don't want to go in a violent way. I want to pretty much just go to sleep and never wake up. So here I am.

What about you guys?
I went to medical school overseas. I was the victim of crimes by the university. As a result I lost my dream career, I'm likely going to be chronically impoverished, I can't find (meaningful employment, I have no friends IRL at least, my family doesn't care they'll buy me things here and there but in terms of helping fix my broken life no. I'm going to be 30 in a couple weeks and I'm in a worse position then when I was 18 despite working my ass off in college, jobs, and medical school. I'm literally homeless. To be honest I went from living a life of passion to one devoid of passion, meaning, just everything. To be honest everyday i wake up in my own worst nightmare and there's no room to escape. In two years I've watched as everything is slowly taken from me. The only reason I'm not dead is I fear becoming a quadriplegic if I hang myself or jump from a bridge.
 
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randomsomeonein

Member
Oct 7, 2023
13
Not exactly broken - just very tired.
This is such a good answer. People don't know that even if everything is fine, one can just get tired of life and not want to live anymore. Such a good answer
 
murderatruemorgue

murderatruemorgue

Member
Feb 17, 2024
44
Realizing that if the neurosurgeon blows me off on Tuesday that I have literally no other option but to CTB. That I will continue to decline neurologically until I lose complete control of my brain and either end up a) trapped in my body with my mind intact or b) a vegetable.
I survived my wife passing, losing half my immediate family, my career, deal with daily debilitating pain, can't even do any hobbies anymore. Losing my brain is the last straw.
 
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DoomValuer

DoomValuer

So lost...
Nov 3, 2023
66
No real "breaking point", just joined since I was looking for a forum like this since I knew about this forum.
 
Archness

Archness

Defective Personel
Jan 20, 2023
500
The chemicals in the water making my Autistic in mother's womb.
/j

But really covid, the school years after the lockdown, and graduation where, the moments the unavoidable truth of this world and my life revealed themselves to me. I live only to die; without anyone really knowing or understanding me, or really caring about me more then yet another human being, or out of a certain obligation.
 
NomoreShame

NomoreShame

Member
Mar 8, 2024
5
Getting diagnosed with schizophrenia at the age of 26 by a group of psychiatrist's in a boxed in room with no exits. Ever since, that word has been hovering above my head everywhere I go. That broke me 3 years back. I thought I overcome it, not to sure anymore.
 
strangelife

strangelife

Specialist
Feb 16, 2024
364
I was healthy and happy until the age 40, in December 23 I got significant problems with health, I don't want to live in this condition
 
Grav

Grav

Warlock
Jul 26, 2020
779
Always depressed from a very young age but without going into details, finally coming clean and being honest and it costing me the only job I ever wanted to do. Everything since is just floating along.
 
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Endofit

Get me out of here
Jan 19, 2024
69
One unfixable life mistake that took everything away from me
 
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Parnate

Experienced
Dec 16, 2021
249
Who I am, what I am , how I am,
The way God made me.
I have hyperhidrosis, AVPD, ADHD. Even the hyperhidrosis would be acceptable were I not avpd and having adhd.
 
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TiredOfAllThis

Arcanist
Feb 5, 2024
453
People don't know that even if everything is fine, one can just get tired of life and not want to live anymore.
It's not like everything is fine - could have been worse - but tiredness is only growing.
 

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