What broke you?

[wildflowers1996]

body dysmorphic disorder

 

[WhatPowerIs]

Abuse from my family when I was younger. And just recently I am learning that I will be stuck mediocre forever and I will never, ever have the life I want.

 

[Exact Change]

It wasn't a single moment but rather a growing urge. I've been worn down over the years. And the more the US goes down the toilet, the more ctb makes sense.

I'm am so sorry for your circumstance. My issues seem to pale in comparison.

 

[bipbapbop]

I have always had a mild case of depression and PTSD. My first attempt was at 8 years old and I spent adolescence drugged up without my consent until I was about 19. I met my partner around that time and he really brought me so much life and ability to function that I'm now in an extremely high pressure prestigious academic environment. Unfortunately its too much pressure for our relationship and he left me in December because honestly we're just two scared kids trying hard to prove ourselves to a cruel world.

It all came crashing down last year slowly throughout the summer (job, school, marriage) and I realized that I am just too tired to keep going.

TL;DR: trauma and burnout

 

[brokeandbroken]

What broke you to the point of suicide and joining SS?

For me, my daughter died in a horrible accident. My partner committed suicide two weeks later. That was almost 5 years ago and I'm still stuck in the same place I was after they died. I've been extremely suicidal since and I just can't take this for much longer but I don't want to go in a violent way. I want to pretty much just go to sleep and never wake up. So here I am.

What about you guys?

I went to medical school overseas. I was the victim of crimes by the university. As a result I lost my dream career, I'm likely going to be chronically impoverished, I can't find (meaningful employment, I have no friends IRL at least, my family doesn't care they'll buy me things here and there but in terms of helping fix my broken life no. I'm going to be 30 in a couple weeks and I'm in a worse position then when I was 18 despite working my ass off in college, jobs, and medical school. I'm literally homeless. To be honest I went from living a life of passion to one devoid of passion, meaning, just everything. To be honest everyday i wake up in my own worst nightmare and there's no room to escape. In two years I've watched as everything is slowly taken from me. The only reason I'm not dead is I fear becoming a quadriplegic if I hang myself or jump from a bridge.

 

[randomsomeonein]

Not exactly broken - just very tired.

This is such a good answer. People don't know that even if everything is fine, one can just get tired of life and not want to live anymore. Such a good answer

 

[murderatruemorgue]

Realizing that if the neurosurgeon blows me off on Tuesday that I have literally no other option but to CTB. That I will continue to decline neurologically until I lose complete control of my brain and either end up a) trapped in my body with my mind intact or b) a vegetable.
I survived my wife passing, losing half my immediate family, my career, deal with daily debilitating pain, can't even do any hobbies anymore. Losing my brain is the last straw.

 

[DoomValuer]

No real "breaking point", just joined since I was looking for a forum like this since I knew about this forum.

 

[Archness]

The chemicals in the water making my Autistic in mother's womb.
/j

But really covid, the school years after the lockdown, and graduation where, the moments the unavoidable truth of this world and my life revealed themselves to me. I live only to die; without anyone really knowing or understanding me, or really caring about me more then yet another human being, or out of a certain obligation.

 

[NomoreShame]

Getting diagnosed with schizophrenia at the age of 26 by a group of psychiatrist's in a boxed in room with no exits. Ever since, that word has been hovering above my head everywhere I go. That broke me 3 years back. I thought I overcome it, not to sure anymore.

 

[strangelife]

I was healthy and happy until the age 40, in December 23 I got significant problems with health, I don't want to live in this condition

 

[bubbles_0403]

I don't feel real anymore.

 

[Grav]

Always depressed from a very young age but without going into details, finally coming clean and being honest and it costing me the only job I ever wanted to do. Everything since is just floating along.

 

[Endofit]

One unfixable life mistake that took everything away from me

 

[Parnate]

Who I am, what I am , how I am,
The way God made me.
I have hyperhidrosis, AVPD, ADHD. Even the hyperhidrosis would be acceptable were I not avpd and having adhd.

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

People don't know that even if everything is fine, one can just get tired of life and not want to live anymore.

It's not like everything is fine - could have been worse - but tiredness is only growing.