Lullaby
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- Mar 9, 2022
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(Random vent, totally feel free to ignore. Idk why my journal wasn't enough :\ you guys and this forum are the only ones who understand and don't judge.)
I feel like I love my parents, but I know I also have hate for them, too. They've contributed to so much of what I hate about myself, my life, and the trauma/PTSD I've been stuck with since I was a child.
I've also been really irritable lately and just seem to be annoyed with everyone. Everytime I feel guilty for becoming super reclusive and staying in the house, something happens that reminds me I'm better off alone.
I've just been staying inside with my cat, reading all day, and listening to music. I don't really care anymore about trying to make the life I wanted happen.
I honestly think if I magic had all the things I wanted tomorrow, I'd still be unhappy.
I feel like I love my parents, but I know I also have hate for them, too. They've contributed to so much of what I hate about myself, my life, and the trauma/PTSD I've been stuck with since I was a child.
I've also been really irritable lately and just seem to be annoyed with everyone. Everytime I feel guilty for becoming super reclusive and staying in the house, something happens that reminds me I'm better off alone.
I've just been staying inside with my cat, reading all day, and listening to music. I don't really care anymore about trying to make the life I wanted happen.
I honestly think if I magic had all the things I wanted tomorrow, I'd still be unhappy.
