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nowhere
- Sep 12, 2020
- 1,066
Woke up in agony. It really hurts.
How am I supposed to spend less time in bed when all I feel is pain or numbness?
How am I supposed to spend less time in bed when all I feel is pain or numbness?
I feel numb. I feel worthless. I feel like a failure.
And it's all true.
I hate my dad sometimes, I hate my mom sometimes, I hate my brother sometimes, I hate my friends online sometimes.
Clearly I'm not a people person.
And it's all true.
I hate my dad sometimes, I hate my mom sometimes, I hate my brother sometimes, I hate my friends online sometimes.
Clearly I'm not a people person.
logan
Warlock
- May 20, 2021
- 705
The end is near ...
It feels terrible because it's "only" the circumstances of life that force me to do this.
My family will suffer a lot.
It feels terrible because it's "only" the circumstances of life that force me to do this.
My family will suffer a lot.
ncmxm
Experienced
- Jun 9, 2021
- 232
im sick of obsessing over a guy ill never have. im sick of all my chores just to exist. im sick of taking care of my elderly cat even tho i love her. im sick of all my bullshit, im sick of my procrastination. im sick of me, im sick of being awake. i want to die.
narval
Enlightened
- Jan 22, 2020
- 1,188
Sprite_Geist
NULL
- May 27, 2020
- 1,596
"Why can I not have the will to move away from my family? I hate myself for not having the feeling of independance that I wanted in my teenage years!"
logan
Warlock
- May 20, 2021
- 705
I think because we are social creatures and our family are our roots - even if it is sometimes difficult to live together with them.
idealniymir
Member
- Jul 16, 2021
- 8
Like I have alot of responsibilities but it's only alot for me where as if it was someone else, they can handle it perfectly. I'm truly miserable.
Sprite_Geist
NULL
- May 27, 2020
- 1,596
Yes - you have a point. However not everyone has a connection to their biological family. I think that family is more about sharing a social bond rather than blood. Plus when I said that I am finding it difficult to move away from family I meant the act of moving, and not missing family. Perhaps I should have been more specific. Apologies.
Life_and_Death
Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
- Jul 1, 2020
- 7,031
western_heart
trying to save ourself
- May 23, 2021
- 622
Dissociated. Can't feel much but I know I am anxious and having stomach pain.
Schevan
Future Dead Rodent
- Jan 3, 2021
- 46
Mad. I hate it when things tell me not to think.
Sweating, hot. Hate the heat. Wishing for someone to shoot me dead where I sit.
Soda is good. Drinking it. Miss my family and when I lived in a house.
Sweating, hot. Hate the heat. Wishing for someone to shoot me dead where I sit.
Soda is good. Drinking it. Miss my family and when I lived in a house.
clown_17
Almost gone, it almost worked
- Oct 24, 2020
- 288
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Warlock
- Jul 31, 2020
- 715
Empty and indecisive, I just wanted to die in my sleep so I wouldn't worry about everything else
Like a piece of shit. I just deserve to die. I don't care how painful the method is as long as it guarantees death.
logan
Warlock
- May 20, 2021
- 705
I'm in a horrible cycle of OCD. I thought I can keep it under control. But I guess I can't. I didn't choose this illness. It's horrible.
My father is currently in the hospital in the intensive care unit. He is currently not doing well, and sunset may be approaching. Despite everything that went on between us. I would gladly switch places with him, just so he can enjoy life a little longer...
I don't really want to go to work today, but I have no other means of getting the funds needed for rent and 2 other bills due by Sunday. I would rather just stay here and get completely smashed.
Huntfish34
Enlightened
- Mar 13, 2020
- 1,619
Sitting here on my lunch break, I'm feeling quite tired and just plain drained. Having 2 Fuckhead bosses certainly doesn't help matters. Fckk
I am greatful that I have some good OG Kush to help me float through the rest of the day tho.
I am greatful that I have some good OG Kush to help me float through the rest of the day tho.
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nowhere
- Sep 12, 2020
- 1,066
Shitty.
Pain.
I want to tear myself apart. I want to bang this head against the wall until it cracks.
I want to jump into a giant meat grinder. I'm sick of this body and mind.
Pain.
I want to tear myself apart. I want to bang this head against the wall until it cracks.
I want to jump into a giant meat grinder. I'm sick of this body and mind.
http-410
nowhere
- Sep 12, 2020
- 1,066
Stuck in a cycle of pain.
I remember how this agony started a year ago. I had never experienced anything like this before and I thought it was a one-time thing.
How wrong I was.
It's just going to get worse, if that's even possible.
I find myself thinking more and more about a date to die. I am falling apart. Everyone is watching, even I am watching myself die. There is no help, only I can help myself break out of this vicious circle by destroying myself. I wish I wasn't forced to do this, but I have no choice. Every day the same shit, the ever increasing pain. At some point I'm going to break. I don't want to die, or at least I don't want to experience it consciously. It will be excruciating and probably pretty terrible, but after that I won't be able to think it's bad. I wish I wasn't alone then. Just once.
I remember how this agony started a year ago. I had never experienced anything like this before and I thought it was a one-time thing.
How wrong I was.
It's just going to get worse, if that's even possible.
I find myself thinking more and more about a date to die. I am falling apart. Everyone is watching, even I am watching myself die. There is no help, only I can help myself break out of this vicious circle by destroying myself. I wish I wasn't forced to do this, but I have no choice. Every day the same shit, the ever increasing pain. At some point I'm going to break. I don't want to die, or at least I don't want to experience it consciously. It will be excruciating and probably pretty terrible, but after that I won't be able to think it's bad. I wish I wasn't alone then. Just once.
logan
Warlock
- May 20, 2021
- 705
The way I read it, you really need to change something fundamental in your life.
That takes a lot of strength and energy!
Maybe you can focus your concentration on a possible solution.
If you fail then you can always end it.
That takes a lot of strength and energy!
Maybe you can focus your concentration on a possible solution.
If you fail then you can always end it.
littlelungs
Wizard
- Oct 21, 2018
- 646
Today I made the mistake of looking at the social media profiles of people I went to school with. With every single profile I visit, I feel like I'm looking at the exact same, professionally taken photos in a field showing off a pregnancy or engagement, usually to someone like a firefighter or a well-off businessman, and who seem to (quite frequently) be able to afford lavish vacations to tropical climates.
And I really, truly don't mean to shit on them for any of that, or to sound all like "not like the other girls" or whatever. My own issues with life have nothing to do with them. Maybe that's how my life would have been, too, had I been dealt a very different hand of cards... and to be honest, that scares me, too.
Just about (if not) every single aspect of the masses is unsettling to me and bums me out beyond belief, one of the reasons being that it's yet another reminder that I don't belong here... but then again, if ALL OF THIS is what's "normal" and just how life is "supposed" to be, then I don't even want to be part of it, anyway. The societal expectations, trends and the cookie-cutter image of what it means to be a "normal" person, I find it all so insanely depressing: Go to college, get a job, pay taxes, get married, have kids, work for another 40 years or so, retire and then spend the rest of my time cutting coupons because of how much the system fucks over the elderly, the sick and the vulnerable, until I ultimately die a more "acceptable" death, most likely in a nursing home or hospital due to illness. It all just feels so insignificant and like one huge, glorified waste of time, and I've never really understood how people can just go along with all of this without even so much as acknowledging how fucking bizarre it is just to exist on this gigantic rock, spinning around and around in our solar system, surrounded by a universe that could go on forever for all we know... all the while "we're" focused on Kim Kardashian's ass and killing each other over whose imaginary friend is better. I don't understand any of this.
My whole life, I've been homesick for a place I could never identify, but in any case, I definitely don't think it's a place in this world – and God knows I've certainly tried to find it. When I was a kid, I used to tell myself that I was really just an alien from a faraway planet, who was sent here to observe – not even because I actually believed that to be true, but because by telling myself that, it made it a little easier to cope with everything.
The whole thing just makes me uneasy, and makes me feel almost like I'm drowning, but right as I'm about to slip into unconsciousness, I'm pulled up back to surface again. Rinse and repeat.
Being alive is so uncomfortable.
And I really, truly don't mean to shit on them for any of that, or to sound all like "not like the other girls" or whatever. My own issues with life have nothing to do with them. Maybe that's how my life would have been, too, had I been dealt a very different hand of cards... and to be honest, that scares me, too.
Just about (if not) every single aspect of the masses is unsettling to me and bums me out beyond belief, one of the reasons being that it's yet another reminder that I don't belong here... but then again, if ALL OF THIS is what's "normal" and just how life is "supposed" to be, then I don't even want to be part of it, anyway. The societal expectations, trends and the cookie-cutter image of what it means to be a "normal" person, I find it all so insanely depressing: Go to college, get a job, pay taxes, get married, have kids, work for another 40 years or so, retire and then spend the rest of my time cutting coupons because of how much the system fucks over the elderly, the sick and the vulnerable, until I ultimately die a more "acceptable" death, most likely in a nursing home or hospital due to illness. It all just feels so insignificant and like one huge, glorified waste of time, and I've never really understood how people can just go along with all of this without even so much as acknowledging how fucking bizarre it is just to exist on this gigantic rock, spinning around and around in our solar system, surrounded by a universe that could go on forever for all we know... all the while "we're" focused on Kim Kardashian's ass and killing each other over whose imaginary friend is better. I don't understand any of this.
My whole life, I've been homesick for a place I could never identify, but in any case, I definitely don't think it's a place in this world – and God knows I've certainly tried to find it. When I was a kid, I used to tell myself that I was really just an alien from a faraway planet, who was sent here to observe – not even because I actually believed that to be true, but because by telling myself that, it made it a little easier to cope with everything.
The whole thing just makes me uneasy, and makes me feel almost like I'm drowning, but right as I'm about to slip into unconsciousness, I'm pulled up back to surface again. Rinse and repeat.
Being alive is so uncomfortable.
Promortalist_
Celebrate Death Mourn Life
- Jul 5, 2021
- 74
dfoihigbs;itjweaojosvinsindrgsfjbnifusdvubsdlivubzslLAfiafobcbz lol you said don't think. So many thoughts at once, mind is racing :(
Luchs
kristallene Bergluft über verfallener Gruft
- Aug 20, 2019
- 528
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