Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[anonymous29]

switching between insane, empty, overwhelmed, sad, and angry randomly

 

[zam_zam]

I miss feeling like I was on the edge of nirvana
It was probably a deluded fantasy, but it felt real
It was a glimpse of what existing ought to be instead of what it is
Like being in the eye of a hurricane
I can't tolerate even the most basic shit because all I think about is that feeling
I don't want to live a life that isn't like that
I've read NDE accounts from people who reported something similar
For me it came from being a privileged junkie

Felt it on a manic episode, my parents brought me to the hospital, they injected me with something. I felt like I died, I was following an entity, I grabbed it and asked who I was. It told me that it's just you. There's no distinction, I'm you, you are me. I asked it why do I feel so much pain it just told me, it doesn't matter.