Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[anonymous29]

switching between insane, empty, overwhelmed, sad, and angry randomly

 

[zam_zam]

I miss feeling like I was on the edge of nirvana
It was probably a deluded fantasy, but it felt real
It was a glimpse of what existing ought to be instead of what it is
Like being in the eye of a hurricane
I can't tolerate even the most basic shit because all I think about is that feeling
I don't want to live a life that isn't like that
I've read NDE accounts from people who reported something similar
For me it came from being a privileged junkie

Felt it on a manic episode, my parents brought me to the hospital, they injected me with something. I felt like I died, I was following an entity, I grabbed it and asked who I was. It told me that it's just you. There's no distinction, I'm you, you are me. I asked it why do I feel so much pain it just told me, it doesn't matter.

 

[Custos]

I have £100m under my bed, someone please break in. Murder required.

 

[CTB Dream]

this me no psbl any this me loseall this lif awfl wrng cncpt

 

[amor.dor]

I feel good about myself, but the politics and economy of my country constantly irritate me; I'd rather die than live just to pay taxes. Phew

 

[BlendedHeart]

Hello SS, it's another sad saturday night for me.

Since I won't pay full price for the new RE game (I'll wait for a sale or something, as usual), I'm playing RE2 again.

It's raining a lot outside. I could be out with friends or my girlfriend... if I had any of those, so I'm comfortably numb inside.

 

[Manaaja]

A castration would have prevented this post.

 

[violetforever]

i think im just immensely and forever dissatisfied by everything in life. even in moments where i dont feel that way, its underlying. i know it will eventually lead me to ending my own life when i cant take how much it bothers me. i feel like ive fully came to my senses about reality at 24. ive been suicidal since i was 11 but its different as a child. theres still hope for experiencing life and growing up. i feel like ive just experienced enough and given up to be sure about suicide instead of dying of old age or waiting for some unfortunate chance.

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

Clarity but also trapped. I'm starting to get physically sick of how much I have to lie to survive.
I tested my ligature method and felt no fear. Just relief. But that was probably because I knew I wasn't going to go all the way. I think I could do it but I still can't do that to my mom.

 

[dead dav]

Fed up of this life

 

[CTB Dream]

rly awfl lif rly awfl all

 

[Manaaja]

Being abused by violent, brainless, evil idiots makes it so that you think you are deserving, because you are kind, loving, good, intelligent, wise. But what if someone else is also kind, loving, good, intelligent, wise? Does that make you undeserving? It's scary, isn't it? You want others to be great people, but your whole worthiness is tied to you being the only great person.

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

Got my HRT. I haven't been on T blockers in almost a full year now. So relieving to be back on it.

 

[violetforever]

i hate when i wait until the last minute to do my homework and then i have to submit it in a rush so it's bad. i can't even do academic validation right. i swear i sound smarter than this (or not) <\3

Being abused by violent, brainless, evil idiots makes it so that you think you are deserving, because you are kind, loving, good, intelligent, wise. But what if someone else is also kind, loving, good, intelligent, wise? Does that make you undeserving? It's scary, isn't it? You want others to be great people, but your whole worthiness is tied to you being the only great person.

i feel like you just perfectly wrote out an innermost thought of mine. i'm going to think of your excellent wording for the rest of the week or my life.

 

[ironrain]

I hate short women, stealing all men!!!

 

[a.hamza.13]

I feel like I'm trapped in the loop. I can escape it but I can't.

 

[yotaka]

I wish I could escape, but it's so hard to leave my loved ones. Especially her, my best friend. How could I ever do that to her?

 

[Unsure and Useless]

I haven't done anything all day because I can't bring it within me to do anything. I know this is wrong, and even though I can drag myself to do some low-effort doomscrolling, I still feel the guilt of just dipping on my obligations. I'm such a failure. Everyone else can function normally; meanwhile, I have to actively choose to do something as simple as brushing my teeth. I feel like I have to CTB as my final action so that I don't burden anyone else

 

[amor.dor]

I tried to get romantically close to someone, but for some reason, when I'm near this person, I start feeling nauseous and don't stay close for long. I feel anxious when I spend too much time near anyone—I didn't used to feel this way. I don't understand...

 

[Hime]

feeling so lonely and paralysed to do anything about it. it feels like i keep digging myself deeper and deeper down, missing last month for each month that goes by. i mean what the hell is wrong with me, how can i miss the feeling of being at my most suicidal point in life? it felt like i had an objective or something to look forward to back then, and now theres nothing. everything is still. im literally frozen in time but still aging.

and im so lonely. its freezing...

 

[violetforever]

my classmate thought i was 18 like mostly everyone else in the class lol.

 

[Onlookerx]

tired

 

[yotaka]

my classmate thought i was 18 like mostly everyone else in the class lol.

Maybe there's something about crippling mental health issues that keeps one young. By the time I finished university I was 6+ years older than all my classmates, but they all thought I was around their age...

 

[scordatura]

Thank you doctors for the diazepam. much needed thanks. too late though... but yeah well.

 

[Custos]

Can the sun please CBT.

 

[Hime]

to just feel anything again ive relapsed on drugs. taking these substances disgusts me so much, honestly more than any euphoria, but i still do it. this is my way of self harming i guess.

maybe im hoping ill accidentally OD or something?...

 

[overlyelusive]

I've wasted so much time, I wish I had done something good with my life like.. a decade ago. Now I feel like I'm the definition of pathetic, sobbing constantly over missed opportunities and people that are long gone.

 

[Rogue_Gendarme]

I feel worthless and insignificant. I'd usually wax poetic, but... This is the deepest my depression has sunk. I don't want to wax poetic my way out of the truth. I feel numb, used, hated, lonely, and miserable. So much. I'm hoping to fucking God so much that I have the best two months of my life before I die. By God, please.

 

[scordatura]

I have earned my solitude.... and not a good one. I am way too... the waking up to just complete emptiness. and im so desperate for something to save me, too just make it stop. It's just unbearable, and i really dont want to be alone anymore. really i just really want folk to be close too. but i do everything to prevent that. its compulsively. and you can tell energy from people... i know its so distant. I feel intense isolation. i don't know. i hate myself and this is the most extreme hollowness i have ever experienced. I need constant distraction. I really can't handle thinking, but realistically i am forced too and as soon as i get it im deteriorating.

 

[tiokapaws]

Hungry! Im eating rn but i still feel hungry. I think I might have ice cream after if my brother hasnt eaten it. Schrondingers icecream or however u spell his name. I really hope my icecream is there