3/4Dead
Peace, Love, Empathy
- Feb 27, 2024
- 405
Held a gun for the first time. Things started to feel very real; not that it didn't feel real before, and it still did before, but I could literally do it tonight. I could go to a secluded parking lot with an abandoned building in it and shoot myself there and be done. I'm really gonna do this. I was always going to but I'm really going to kill myself. I don't know, but, I think I'm scared.
I still need to write notes, and get rid of my things but I'm so overwhelmed now. It's the same way I've felt before when first deciding I would die. I'm taking my time but the clock is ticking.
I still need to write notes, and get rid of my things but I'm so overwhelmed now. It's the same way I've felt before when first deciding I would die. I'm taking my time but the clock is ticking.