Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[FormerlyFe(IV)]

Hearing a crush/fwb fawn over men so unlike me. Ughhh

 

[LoiteringClouds]

I want to cry until my limitless reservoir of tear dries up. I don't know why.
It's raining. The clouds are crying instead of me. It should be comforting - Isn't it great when Mother Nature is on my side?
It's draining - I have a hard time to have a shower and water a pot of flower. I don't know why I can't let go of my plants - to the point where I've grown my annual vinca for 7 years.

 

[drmihilo]

Chaos. I wish the world didn't exist

 

[starlover]

Peace.

I've finally given up on the idea of things getting better, of a brighter day that might be around the corner. I've let go, now.

Not everyone gets to accomplish their dreams. Not everyone can get what they want. Not me. And that's okay. I did my best, and my best wasn't good enough. I've made bad choices that got me here. And that's okay.

I'm not holding out anymore. Tomorrow won't be better than today. Anticipation will no longer kill me.

I think I'm ready to die. And I'm relieved.

 

[icanfeelthesoil]

bored. tired. happy seeing my tortoise enjoy a new enclosure i built for her. a bit comforted, knowing i have a method chosen if i want to leave, but anxious because im not ready yet. enjoying the fact that i bought weed and am gonna smoke it lol

 

[AriasRed]

Peacefully depressed.

 

[Whistea]

Fowned an entire 0.7 boztle by myself
srill feel horrible about a girör i treated wrong, but hey
That dhall pass too

 

[liljeep]

All I can think about right now is eating. I've been consciously restricting how much I eat to suboptimal numbers for a while, and I've lost 51 lbs since December. I last struggled with restriction as part of my eating disorder when I was 13 until I was about 16. But I didn't lose this much weight. The sad thing is, I still haven't even reached a healthy weight. I was that fat. I was the fat kid and now I'm a gross fat lady who doesn't deserve to eat either way. All the food I want will exist when I can bare to look at myself.

 

[FormerlyFe(IV)]

I need a hug. Bad.

 

[suicidalloser]

suicidal

 

[Unending]

I am feeling like life is excruciating torture and I just want it to end. I really just don't have words for it. A mixture of all the worst feelings are floating around my head at all times and oftentimes they become quite intense. It is horrible.

 

[suicidalloser]

i feel pain all around me.

 

[aGoodDayToDie]

Fucking bored, lost, frustrated, unsatisfied, unfulfilled, lonely. Wish i didn't exist. Don't have the balls to kill myself. Hate this existence. Hate feeling so empty. Nothing to live for. Wasting away on welfare disability benefits. Just sitting at home all the time doing fuck all. Everyone says things will get better buy over 2 decades I have fucking zero evidence that that's the case. Life is a fucking pile of wank

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Anger
Pain
Hate
Anxiety
Depression
Suicidal

 

[awman]

I feel empty. Like if you slice me open, you'll find nothing there. Just black emptiness. I go through life mechanically, and it's like every emotion I feel is fake. Like they're really just at the surface. Beneath, there's nothing. It's weird. I know what to feel but I don't feel it.

I'm hurting and because of that, I end up hurting others. I don't want to cause pain anymore. I don't want to feel pain anymore. I just want it all to end.

i really just want to sh or ctb but i feel so stuck and i can't do neither of those things. i'm married but it feels that my husband no longer cares for me or our relationship. i can't talk to him or express myself to him without him trying to "fix" the problem or just not listening or not understanding me. i can't talk to anyone else about how i feel and i can't stand being here anymore. i feel no matter what i do it's not good enough and it's just been one bad thing after another lately. it just feels something or someone is out to get me. maybe myself, maybe god? i just don't want to perish.

 

[nothingnobody]

ABJECT MISERY

 

[alonely]

feeling like there is no hope and no answers even though i have been looking for them. there is just no solution. i have been stuck feeling this way for so long, time isn't making it pass. there's nothing i can do about it.

I need a hug. Bad.

me too. me fucking too.

 

[purpleSkeleton]

anxious. Scared. My mother went on a 2 month trip and i'm just left with my father for most of the day. He's very unpredictable, specially with me when i'm alone with him. so I will just try to avoid him as much as it's possible for me in this very tiny space.

 

[Freyja13]

Just kinda hope I don't wake back up to a world that hates me for being trans. Sorry if that's not clear. I know the world won't change lmao. I just hope I won't wake up.

 

[Murt]

Agitated and exhausted

Me exactly. I can't sleep or finish a coherent thought. I want it all to just stop.

 

[Awake47]

Zoning in & out but my heart rate going 100mph. My cat's fur against the skin on my hand is very nice though

 

[saddestbunny]

alone + suicidal + over thinking + restless

 

[CTB Dream]

No want stay awfl unvrs dlt me

 

[im here i guess]

I just tried talking to one of my partners about some suicidal thoughts, but I guess I should have excepted them to freak out. I wish I didn't panic them. I wish I could stop hurting people

 

[illvoid]

confused, nauseous, have a headache. I'm a little stressed but listening to music so not too bad.

 

[LoiteringClouds]

Today I froze several times for about a minute at work.
I have Excel files on my computer which I use very often but I couldn't figure out how to open them. My brain just stopped working.
I feel like I'm beyond repair and the only thing waiting for me is despair.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

just had my last cigarette and i dont want to buy anymore bc i just cant fucking justify spending twelve quid twice a week. its gonna be hell im terrified of whats gonna happen, im gonna be even more irritable and depressed than i already am. i dont want to stop smoking but i have to until i get a job. im tired of constantly asking for money. ive seriously thought about buying them from overseas but idk how to use bitcoin and im terrified of paying a fine i cant afford if it gets caught in customs. smokings the only thing ive been able to do to cope with shit, im gonna end up shing so much more. im not necessarily worried about the sh, just the bullshit that other people give me bc of it. my heads gonna be so much more loud im dreading it so much. im already anxious bc i just get anxious anytime i run low on cigs, idky but just seeing how few cigs i have left makes my mental health worse. i hate this. idk what im gonna do now. i have nothing left to do during the day now, i have no energy for anything else. i need to call my local job centre to see if they can help me find a job bc im just getting no where by myself but im way too anxious idk what to expect or say when i call them and idk if theyre just gonna reject me bc im not worthy of help or im too fucked to help. i just want to give up im so tired i want this to stop. i want to end it but i dont have a reliable method bc i cant afford sn and im terrified of buying from the wrong place. i could try partial of full suspension i guess. but my friend tried to ctb recently i dont want them to think i did it bc of them. fucks sake. i just need a break from my head. i wish i could take my brain out and put it in the freezer.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

tired and it's warm

 

[Nervosomnifer]

Empty inside. Just empty. No hope, no dreams, no aspirations..

 

[SenseOfLoss]

Exhausted from struggling