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exitus acta probat
- Feb 24, 2023
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May I ask why?I'm really desperate to die
You really wouldn't want another shot at it? Just to see if it's lived differently?I get this. So many people want for there to be an afterlife but for me, I just want everything to end when I die. One life is way too much already, I don't need a life after this.
because you know yourself best and (given that none of us are perfect altruists) therefore know that thing you did (or didn't do) that is just so unforgivable that you have no choice but to see yourself as a bad person (at least that's how it is for me, lemme kno if it makes sense to u)Good for you! One thing at a time!
(also why is it so easy to root for others to do well in their lives but when it's my life, I'm just... meh. hahaha)
Yeah it totally sucks when you think you have a chance with the one person you thought to completely understand you just to have them be the one to tear your heart out your chest.Numb.
Normal people don't want my ugliness, my weaknesses. Tried opening up and reaching out to someone and they didn't just slam the door to my face but stomped all over me too. This is why I wear a mask and don't disclose my mental health issues in real life. Trying to recover and having hope only for it to push me back to zero sucks.