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Backwood_tilt

UnEnlightened
Dec 27, 2019
889
Fear, accompanied by a sense of calm.
 
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Deleted member 1465

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Jul 31, 2018
6,914
Pointless futile anger
 
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CarefulWithThatAxe

Experienced
Nov 7, 2019
296
Self Pity
 
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Epsilon0

Enlightened
Dec 28, 2019
1,874
I am obsessed with an 80's song called Voyage Voyage. I have known it for a long time, but suddenly I rediscovered it. Music still moves me... so I guess there is some life left in me, after all.


Voyage, voyage
Vole dans les hauteurs
Au dessus des capitales
Des idées fatales
Regardent l'océan
 
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Nolivesmatter

Member
Jan 31, 2020
13
I'm feeling hopeless.
Every day feels the same.
I feel like I'm past the point of trying to change myself because I hate society.
I feel tired. I feel frustrated. I feel like I'm not good enough. I feel shame. I feel broken
 
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Halo13

Halo13

Wizard
May 9, 2019
671
Not really feeling, just thinking listening to the birds. They've built a nest above my front door. It used to aggravate me - now I don't mind. I'm kinda envious hearing them chirp happily every morning but at least something is happy. Over the years neighbors have said get rid of that birdnest - nah, I let them be, they always come back each year. Probably still will after I'm gone.
 
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Thereisnothing

Thereisnothing

Enlightened
Jan 4, 2020
1,604
Not really feeling, just thinking listening to the birds. They've built a nest above my front door. It used to aggravate me - now I don't mind. I'm kinda envious hearing them chirp happily every morning but at least something is happy. Over the years neighbors have said get rid of that birdnest - nah, I let them be, they always come back each year. Probably still will after I'm gone.
Nature should be admired and respected, thats the trouble with the world not many do. So pleased they have come to nest above your door, creatures give great comfort in the simplest of ways. Ignore your neighbours, how would they like to be got rid of out their homes, people make me mad. I just wish for peace for all.
 
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Halo13

Halo13

Wizard
May 9, 2019
671
Nature should be admired and respected, thats the trouble with the world not many do. So pleased they have come to nest above your door, creatures give great comfort in the simplest of ways. Ignore your neighbours, how would they like to be got rid of out their homes, people make me mad. I just wish for peace for all.
That's my exact train of thought - nature is to be respected along with all the creatures in it (including us!). These birds have came back every year going on 5 years, could tell the chicks hatched recently due to the eggshells and a few more sets of chirping. I don't bother them, they don't bother me so it's all good... other than my dog trying to eat the feathers on the ground :heh:
 
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Phill

Phill

Student
Dec 19, 2019
150
I'm sitting in the office waiting for the time to pass. I'm really unmotivated these days.
 
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JustHeckinKillMe

JustHeckinKillMe

Cool I'm dead
Sep 26, 2019
122
Just heckin' kill me
 
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faraway_beach

Seawater and stardust
Dec 30, 2019
360
Trying to cheer myself up with sweets and it's not working. I'm sitting here crying into my chocolate cake.
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,294
Sadness that is close to close to despair, lost, lonely, somewhat hopeful and very very frightened and uncertain about the future.
 
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Aeathelina

Aeathelina

Little Homeless Girl
Feb 5, 2020
307
I'm tired, scared, hungry and going out of mind with primordial terror over a combination of depression and the appending eviction and the reality that this is all my fault and I wish I never had been born because I am a failure with nothing to give to this world. I hate myself more than anyone could ever hate me and yet I'm still scared of people having negative opinions of me. Why do I think so much when it just leads me to absolutely nothing or the times where I cannot think straight to save my life so I end up caught in a back and forth vortex of emotions that I do not understand. I want it to stop, everything to cease like a unplugged machine.
 
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terry_a_davis

terry_a_davis

Warlock
Dec 28, 2019
707
I love my dog, my mother is great, must study soon, life is a bit shit, wonder if i should text my friend as he's tried calling me, internet'ing passes the time away.
 
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Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
Sadness,yearning,depression,reminiscing etc etc
 
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Halo13

Halo13

Wizard
May 9, 2019
671
Stressing out about going to the damn grocery store. There's people there, makes me anxious. Sick of feeding myself to keep living anyways but have to for the time being.
 
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Life sucks

Visionary
Apr 18, 2018
2,134
Tired
 
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TheOA

TheOA

Student
Jan 5, 2020
101
I am dressed in all black today including my new, all-black Baphomet necklace.

I feel like an overall badass.
 
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Mywill

Mywill

Member
Feb 6, 2020
91
I damn wish my internet wasnt so bad
 
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NumbOne1

Member
Feb 7, 2020
16
Like an empty shell. Like a computer that once worked really well, but now its battery puts out half the power it used to, and so all nonessential functions have been cut, like spark and zest for life and interest in things. Everything works fine on the outside, but on the inside, I feel like 1/10th of the person I once was
 
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ScorpiusDragon

ScorpiusDragon

Mage
Mar 25, 2019
593
strangely happy. Imagining meeting my SS bestie IRL for the first time @Kikoo Loool ^_^
 
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Kikoo Loool

Kikoo Loool

Enlightened
Feb 25, 2019
1,128
Tired but relieved: I'll soon have holidays and I'll plan my meeting in Spring with @ScorpiusDragon :smiling:
 
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TrashBean

TrashBean

Trash
Jan 28, 2020
2
Regret. I talked to someone im close with about my problems and i thought if i told someone about it I'll feel better but i don't, i feel so much worse.
 
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UninformedLover

UninformedLover

If you see me active on here...its gotten worse...
Nov 12, 2019
265
Calm. I just downed like 16 melatonin gummies and now I feel weird and warm lol.
 
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porfin1234

porfin1234

Arcanist
Dec 26, 2019
476
Grateful I got to spend time with a lovely sweet kind person and missing them.
Nervous for what's to come job / life wise.
 
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Epsilon0

Enlightened
Dec 28, 2019
1,874
There's a "whole" in my body - my whole body is filled with pain and despair.

If l only I had a few more candles. But they are all melted vax drops fallen like sand castles on the hardwood floor.

Long time ago, I had a drawer full of candles: some were big and thick, like tree trunks; some were colourful and had inscriptiond on them (well wishes and prayers); others were thin, whitish, almost translucent, no more than a cobwebb around the wick.

All are burned now. Energy does not die, it is merely transformed. Maybe the candles are transformed, but my soul is most certainly dead.
 
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highlyvolatile

highlyvolatile

I don't know anymore.
Feb 14, 2020
278
Im sitting in the laundromat with my cousin and all I can think about is disappearing. People are walking in and out my phones on 7% and im anxious for no reason. I cant find an outlet to charge my phone and i wish i was talking to someone. to get out of my own head. im pissed at my aunt. im hoping i get money i dont wanna live to see another month. im all over the place yet i havent said a word. this is all in my head and i want it to quiet. the only solace i get is sleep. helphelphelphelphelp pleasepelasepleasepleasepelase ive only been eating mini oreos since this morning. ive ate so many they taste gross im ferling ..frantic i think idk if thats the word im looking for. i dont like being alone i dont like being alonewitb my thoughts in my head i dont want to go back can i just vanish?
 
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paroxyical

paroxyical

you dont have to understand to accept.
Feb 15, 2020
149
i dont even know i feel like a wreck and a mess. i feel petrified and i feel hopeless and i feel trapped. i also know its not my time. that doesnt mean i enjoy living or even want to do it.
 
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porfin1234

porfin1234

Arcanist
Dec 26, 2019
476
Feeling very suspicious of a supposed old friend of mine.
Scared of what's to come with job and bills.
In dire need to end things soon before they get worse.
 

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