Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[Serio]

I feel completely lost and worthless I feel like I am someone whose inteligence is decreasing by the daily instead of increasing like I should and feel like it would be best if everyone that says they care about me just discarded me because I am probably a burden on them and I should just disappear vanish and no one would really care anyways if i did because everyone is just lying when they say they care so I feel like because of my uninteligence and extreme emotions it would benefit society if I wasn't in it and this makes me sad because all i want is to be accepted by society and feel like people care for me.

 

[exhausted]

Why am I so fucking embarrassing and self-sabotaging? So much humiliation is caused by me, to me. I am a master at my craft. How can I even love myself, when we're two separate people and one of us is hell-bent on ruining me? I try to get therapy for one half, but I have the Grim Reaper on my back and it's a part of me.

 

[lucid]

Sad...so very sad...

 

[itsmeagain]

Is it bad if attention makes me feel good? I mean, I don't think I'm an attention whore. If anything I just focus on other people, I try not to even bring myself into it. Maybe because ive never had someone shower me with attention or compliments means that when I get them I feel good? I've thought about posting a cropped picture of me around here because it feels nice when people say nice things, but who the fuck am I flaunting myself on a suicide forum? Maybe I'm just insecure. Maybe I feel like lots of people on here I'm close to. I'm going to keep loving everyone here until its their time. Even with all the compliments they all numb over time, and no compliment could ever save me.

... this was me vneting. please don't think badly of me.

 

[Kassender]

I wonder if i will ever stop making the same bullshit mistakes at some point

 

[mesohappy]

I feel nauseous and afraid.I don't know why Im still around.Dont know why Im still trying.Im worried that by sticking around to "live for one more day" Im only making things worse.I don't belong in this world anymore.I just need to do it and get out of the way.Too little too late.

 

[nerve]

Every day is so scary

 

[enjoy]

i'm so damn tired. and hungry!!! and in the mood to travel. i'd love to go to canada right now... it's only 5 hours away. urgh. maybe this summer.

also dying to consume nicotine. technically haven't vaped in 2 weeks. tomorrow we'll hit the smoke shop. hopefully.

 

[TheSuicidalEccentric]

I feel betrayed. I feel like I should have lived my life differently. I feel powerless. I feel so stressed that it's hard to think much anymore.

 

[Lorntroubles]

I'm trying to go to fucking sleep and I can't and it's bothering the fuck out of me.

 

[departing]

I'm sad and lonely... and not getting nearly enough sleep.

 

[Lorntroubles]

I'm really pissed off in life in that I got left behind.

 

[nerve]

If I died, no one around me would ever have to cope with my symptoms ever again. Just a giant overgrown pest.

 

[ladolcemorte]

I feel intense grief and loss. Like all the good things are behind me now and I let them slip away. If only I could go back in time and salvage things. But I can't. There is no way forward. It is all over.

 

[one4all]

An extreme amount of rage

 

[Pisceslilith]

Feeling overwhelmed, I'm trapped around a person I don't wanna be around and there's no escape.

 

[Cjaf]

All over the place. I was watching a movie earlier and had to laugh about every stupid joke. A moment later I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack. Then a moment later I feel strong and believe I can find this b*tch of a depression and before I realize it, I feel torn apart, like my soul is getting ripped into pieces.

It's a rollercoaster. Extremely tiring.

 

[departing]

If I died, no one around me would ever have to cope with my symptoms ever again. Just a giant overgrown pest.

That's exactly how I think about things. I'd be a big burden that disappeared.

 

[BabyYoda]

Don't want to live anymore
Nothing is making me stronger, everything is making me weaker
Something as *simple* as love cannot be given to me like what the fuck

 

[Marchioness]

Rejected. I never understand what's my issue with relationships and therapists can't seem to figure it out either. I tend to excel in everything else.

 

[BabyYoda]

Why can't I just NOT exist? This whole love thing is fucking disgusting

 

[BabyYoda]

Ugh, don't know what to do now. If I need something, I need it, and if I don't get what I need I suffer.

 

[imademypicture]

I'm feeling neutral. Did some productive things today

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Worried and teary

 

[ThisWorldIsPointless]

I feel like i just wanna die and be gone forever. no worries, no more feeling worthless. i feel completely done.

 

[Cashewmilk]

Crap I already wrote what came to mind in my last post and I sound like a blithering idiot. My brain just doesn't compute anymore. I'm so exhausted and wretched I can barely comprehend anything. I'm blank. I'm an idiot and pathetic.

 

[nerve]

Feeling very small tonight.

Suicide hotline lady told me to call back once I've screamed it out. I can't stop screaming. Nobody can hear me. Ive had more urges to self harm in the last week than the last like 2 years. Hurting myself has never been worth the trouble. It just festers.

There's no one left for me to be, nothing left to learn, no more journeys to go on.

 

[the box is empty]

Regretful. I've been ghosting my close friend for a couple of weeks now. I'm tired of spreading rot and negativity so I tried to see if I could stay in my head alone. Now with all the media hysteria I want to reach out to her to just make sure she's okay. But I'm too ashamed. Everyday I don't answer back the gap between us widens.

 

[BabyYoda]

Am trying to relax right now. The media just disturbs me even if I need to stay informed.

 

[Arvinneedstodie]

It's disturbing to me that each person's experience in life can be so different. There are so many factors that's at play in determining one's living experience. Mine is utterly miserable and lonely, and nothing but miserable and lonely. I want something different.