Venting Today would've been our anniversary

[fluorescentpearl]

We were going to meet up in the city and spend time together at a hotel, eat out together, kiss, cuddle.. Instead I'm alone and slowly wilting away, unable to eat or drink, or enjoy anything.. I wish I could end it all, I don't want to spend today alone..
I was hoping I'd be gone by today, so that I didn't have to live through today, and yet I'm alive, and feeling worse than I've felt in days.. I feel so worthless I don't know what to do..
A music artist we both loved and listened to posted a love song today, had we still been together it would've been a cute sign, smt I'd show him with a huge smile saying it can be another one of Our songs..

 

[fluorescentpearl]

I feel worse, as the day continues I feel worse and worse, I wish I died yesterday, the feeling of empty dread after a failed attempt is horrible, I'm a corpse walking