imjusttired
Just a 21 year old living ‘the’ life
- Nov 10, 2020
- 35
Hi!
yes I've survived taking SN. But it was my own fault. Its been like a month already but I wasn't ready to talk about it. Now I am, I think. So I made capsules. I thought lets take the biggest capsules (I'm usually good at taking pills or capsules). When I filled the capsules I was like damn they're very focking big but filled them anyways. Then before my attempt I tried an empty capsule and gagged . They really were to big but I was so determined to go throught with it so I opened the capsules and put it in water (probarly like 20g). Then I took a sip and the taste was just like damn..... soooo bad. It tasted like the smell of bleach. But I know I'm not good in eating or drnking things that don't taste good. I just can't. (thats why I choose for capsules in the first place). Thinking back of it I can almost taste it again. Anyways I just couldn't finish it. I took like 4 sips and like 40% was left I guess. Then just panick kicked in. Stupid stupid panick. I'm inpatient and we gt this bell to call to the nurses and well I used it. I called and said, I took something and I'm scared... They came running and I told them what I took. They called 112 (number for the ambulance, police etc here). I just sat on bed. Panicking. Not feeling that much just the taste in my mouth and my heart raising. The ambulance came and I got rushed with sirens and all. I was so scared (not to die but for my parents finding out, fucking up, not dying lol). So then I came in and 6 nurses and doctors were there and the Ambulance staff told what I did. They just all started working on me. I got an IV in both armS. Attached to many wires (heart rate of 170). And they gave me lots and lots of Oxygen.I got attached to 3 different kind of fluids and anti poison thingy. They had to take blood from my wrist artery to check my oxygen or something idk. That turned out really bad I had really low oxygen (if I remember right about 60%) I turned really blue, especially my lips, hands and feet. That was really scary to me. I asked the nurses if I was gonne make it. They said; "we do as much as we can". That was the point I new it was serious. After like 2 or 3 hours I started vomiting uncontrollably. No idea why only after 2 hours but yeah. They gave me something for it eventually. At like 3 am I was transferred from ER to the ICU, Well I am still alive but they told me 10 minutes later and I would've been gone. I've been wanting to do it again with smaller capsules and I will when I am ready cause I did scare the shit out of myself and many other people. But I still wanne die 100% and I still will.. Anyways that was my story. Just didn't want to deal with it alone anymore I guess... And thought maybe people would like the information from someone who 'tried'. I would appreciate a comment :)
yes I've survived taking SN. But it was my own fault. Its been like a month already but I wasn't ready to talk about it. Now I am, I think. So I made capsules. I thought lets take the biggest capsules (I'm usually good at taking pills or capsules). When I filled the capsules I was like damn they're very focking big but filled them anyways. Then before my attempt I tried an empty capsule and gagged . They really were to big but I was so determined to go throught with it so I opened the capsules and put it in water (probarly like 20g). Then I took a sip and the taste was just like damn..... soooo bad. It tasted like the smell of bleach. But I know I'm not good in eating or drnking things that don't taste good. I just can't. (thats why I choose for capsules in the first place). Thinking back of it I can almost taste it again. Anyways I just couldn't finish it. I took like 4 sips and like 40% was left I guess. Then just panick kicked in. Stupid stupid panick. I'm inpatient and we gt this bell to call to the nurses and well I used it. I called and said, I took something and I'm scared... They came running and I told them what I took. They called 112 (number for the ambulance, police etc here). I just sat on bed. Panicking. Not feeling that much just the taste in my mouth and my heart raising. The ambulance came and I got rushed with sirens and all. I was so scared (not to die but for my parents finding out, fucking up, not dying lol). So then I came in and 6 nurses and doctors were there and the Ambulance staff told what I did. They just all started working on me. I got an IV in both armS. Attached to many wires (heart rate of 170). And they gave me lots and lots of Oxygen.I got attached to 3 different kind of fluids and anti poison thingy. They had to take blood from my wrist artery to check my oxygen or something idk. That turned out really bad I had really low oxygen (if I remember right about 60%) I turned really blue, especially my lips, hands and feet. That was really scary to me. I asked the nurses if I was gonne make it. They said; "we do as much as we can". That was the point I new it was serious. After like 2 or 3 hours I started vomiting uncontrollably. No idea why only after 2 hours but yeah. They gave me something for it eventually. At like 3 am I was transferred from ER to the ICU, Well I am still alive but they told me 10 minutes later and I would've been gone. I've been wanting to do it again with smaller capsules and I will when I am ready cause I did scare the shit out of myself and many other people. But I still wanne die 100% and I still will.. Anyways that was my story. Just didn't want to deal with it alone anymore I guess... And thought maybe people would like the information from someone who 'tried'. I would appreciate a comment :)
