TriggerHappy
In the kingdom of th blind; the one-eyed are kings
- Jan 24, 2021
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I marvel at the infantile horror that this forum could be hijacked and turned into a dating site! :: maybe I am naive :: being human I guess we're all desperate for commonalities & 'comfort' & affirmation. Awful thing is that I (& other members with whom I privately messaged concern...) could read & recognise the "gameplay" but felt it was not my place to 'interfere'...
I myself have struggled with figuring out what it is I actually want from this forum (and relatively; it's members).
When we login we all know the Rules & Regulations & are ultimately responsible for our communication - even the intention behind it; & even more so - the karmic effects we set into motion...
I have found incredible love & support here - but also struggled with harsh criticism (my tactless / irreverent / darklyshining humour a huge misunderstanding)
:: We hurt the one's we love because we partly know that they will ultimately forgive us?!
[ PREDATORY! ] Come on in - the water's fine - and there are even predators here...
ha! ha! so i discovered the "Recovery Partner's Megathread"
and so
i've been tripping about how this is nothing more than a glorified dating site
(where the sick prey on the sicker) and we are all vulnerable to desire and deceit.
& i faithfully / faithlessly went looking for 'friends' with 'common interests / desires' yes, I too am an apex predator...
<< my therapist once warned me that we're as sick as the people we fuck... am relatively celibate these days!!!) >>
... but then i remembered no-one else (only I} can make myself happy / miserable / find fullfillment
i am too burdened by the actions of my past: i may only bring others my burden [until i am maybe well]
so i deleted my communication (and promises of poetry / passion and even exquisite pain) maybe persuasion...?
until i can love myself; i will only love you from afar...
We are ultimately responsible :: please check out your own motivations. maybe. and then hopefully you will recognise the truth in other's...
TriggerHappy // Guns -Shooting - Stars
I myself have struggled with figuring out what it is I actually want from this forum (and relatively; it's members).
When we login we all know the Rules & Regulations & are ultimately responsible for our communication - even the intention behind it; & even more so - the karmic effects we set into motion...
I have found incredible love & support here - but also struggled with harsh criticism (my tactless / irreverent / darklyshining humour a huge misunderstanding)
:: We hurt the one's we love because we partly know that they will ultimately forgive us?!
[ PREDATORY! ] Come on in - the water's fine - and there are even predators here...
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ha! ha! so i discovered the "Recovery Partner's Megathread"
and so
i've been tripping about how this is nothing more than a glorified dating site
(where the sick prey on the sicker) and we are all vulnerable to desire and deceit.
& i faithfully / faithlessly went looking for 'friends' with 'common interests / desires' yes, I too am an apex predator...
<< my therapist once warned me that we're as sick as the people we fuck... am relatively celibate these days!!!) >>
... but then i remembered no-one else (only I} can make myself happy / miserable / find fullfillment
i am too burdened by the actions of my past: i may only bring others my burden [until i am maybe well]
so i deleted my communication (and promises of poetry / passion and even exquisite pain) maybe persuasion...?
until i can love myself; i will only love you from afar...
We are ultimately responsible :: please check out your own motivations. maybe. and then hopefully you will recognise the truth in other's...
TriggerHappy // Guns -Shooting - Stars