sn - ctb in 58 hrs - goodbye thread - 14.00 GMT on 17/07/2023

[Meteora]

I see

 

[chillmungo]

 

[weedico]

Safe travels my friend. Wish you the best on the other side.

 

[ApparentlyNot]

You never know who's life you saved by leaving them the f**k alone.

I didn't read most of this thread bc I just don't have the mentality to cope with a goodbye thread right now, but this quote is fucking funny.

 

[hhmmmm]

Sending you a big hug OP. Safe travels.

 

[spoons]

Is this something that you've composed? It's beautiful. Such a pretty melody. Thank you for leaving this with us. <3

 

[chillmungo]

 

[nomennescio]

Best of luck friend.
Thanks a lot for the updates as well. Are you still this relaxed? No si kicking in?

 

[chillmungo]

Best of luck friend.
Thanks a lot for the updates as well. Are you still this relaxed? No si kicking in?

Completely relaxed. I've felt SI before when confronting scarier ways to do this. Just drinking something and trying not to vomit for long enough to lose consciousness, even with the prospect of a racing heart and everything else that sets in after, doesn't make me scared to drink it.

 

[Stormy Raine]

34 hours.

First antiemetic dose in 2 hours.

Thanks for the kind messages. A lot of people are saying 'see you on the other side,' and I know it's a figure of speech and a nice thing to say, but I'm pretty certain that there's no other side. I couldn't know this for sure but I worry that anyone might ctb with the expectation of another life afterwards. I reckon this is the only life we get; the only earth on which we get to make things happen. I'm certain it's time to leave but this is a beautiful world full of incredible possibilities. I know that's a strange thing to say here.

I'm a Christian and I really hope you're right! I'm already in hell so I hope there isn't an afterlife because I'd hate to do this again!

 

[Zelonis]

If I may ask, what was your last meal?

 

[spoons]

In the short time that I've interacted with you, I have come to like you a lot. Goodbye threads are the worst. I hope everything is still going well. Miss you already, actually. Xx

 

[KarmaBus]

I'm glad you are feeling relaxed. Thank you for sharing your music with us. Hope you find peace

 

[Paperclips]

Interesting and ironic. The date falls on my birthday. Best wishes and safe travels friend

 

[chillmungo]

If I may ask, what was your last meal?

Just some bread. Solid food fast begins now. Liquid fast begins soon.

No more composing.

In the short time that I've interacted with you, I have come to like you a lot. Goodbye threads are the worst. I hope everything is still going well. Miss you already, actually. Xx

Thanks Spoons.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[spoons]

@chillmungo i actually find myself avoiding going to sleep cause I don't want you to be alone, haha. Everyone needs a friend and I'm bound and determined to be yours, even if it is for only 8hours.

 

[chillmungo]

4th anti-emetic. staying quiet to not wake my neighbours.

 

[Zaphkiel]

Godspeed.
If i may ask, where did you get your domperidone? Dont hesistate to tell in PM.
Thanks

 

[chillmungo]

 

[nomennescio]

Completely relaxed. I've felt SI before when confronting scarier ways to do this. Just drinking something and trying not to vomit for long enough to lose consciousness, even with the prospect of a racing heart and everything else that sets in after, doesn't make me scared to drink it.

Glad to hear that. Thinking of you and wishing you will calmly go to get the peace you deserve.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

OP I hope you journey is smooth and everything's alright wishing you success and all the best with your plans! Thanks for documenting your journey this will help other in the future and so many of us will remember you!

 

[nomennescio]

If I may ask, how do you pass time now? The next few hours..
Are you also using benzos?

No problem if you dont feel like answering

 

[Dead Already]

Been thinking about you all day.
Just find peace.

 

[love_peep]

I wish you a safe and pain-free journey between worlds, good luck to you there

 

[Zelonis]

Hope you read this message before you leave. I try to avoid goodbye threads but I wanted to stay along and wish you goodbyes. I truly do hope you find the peace you want. I know what it feels like to be suicidal since childhood. I've personally been suicidal since I was 8. I've been thinking all day and night hoping that you leave this mortal coil peacefully. Goodbye if this is my final message in this thread. Hope everything goes well.

 

[blue_muse]

Just from your determination, it's a shame you're CTB solo because you sound like the ultimate suicide partner.

Wishing you a painless transition .

 

[chillmungo]

liquid fast begins.

I'll try to post more frequently and interestingly but I'm not sure how much I want to say here in case any of this is preserved and found by people in my life I'm trying to get away from.

you sound like the ultimate suicide partner.

probably, but I'd hate to mess up my own ctb and then live with the responsibility for someone else's death. It's terrible that these dilemmas are foisted on people by a society so phobic of death, even though it happens to everyone.

If I may ask, how do you pass time now? The next few hours..

Basically trying to start doing something and then vacillating. I've watched two lectures about world wars i and ii. For no reason. I have nothing to do with this information.

 

[Owl_07]

You are extremely courageous and I am sincerely saddened that things have come to this point for you. All my thoughts are with you in these last hours. I wish you a calm painless journey and hope you could finally rest!

 

[chillmungo]

Godspeed.
If i may ask, where did you get your domperidone? Dont hesistate to tell in PM.
Thanks

Hi, sorry for not getting back to you sooner. Domperidone is sold over the counter all over Europe and much of the world. If you're in the US it's prescription only but it's such an innocuous drug that it shouldn't be hard to get a prescription. If you say you have bad acid reflux or something, there shouldn't be too many follow-up questions.