Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[BlazingBob]

10. I truly don't want to be here. I'm sick and live in a very abusive situation and have nowhere else to go. I just can't abandon these poor dogs I take care of. My life is a living hell.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

10

 

[Anonymus]

8

 

[ZoloftSüchtig]

I'd say a 4-5. To me that means constantly having suicidal thoughts but having this bit of hope that I can undo the mistake I did and enjoy living again. But then why not just end it anyway cause then nothing matters anymore.

 

[Lam1dz]

7 to 8

 

[friendofbirds]

6

 

[KAZ-2Y5]

Depends on the day but if my abusers are being bitches I'm at a 10 for sui and homi. But rn its maybe a 3…4?

 

[Anonymus]

8

 

[Allaboutit]

3. I think about how but only in hypotheticals. I feel grounded in my responsibilities.

 

[JustSomeoneOnline]

9 i'd say if 10 is like "i will kill myself right now no matter what" i still have enough common sense to plan properly before it actually happens but yeah, 9 have been for over a month now

 

[Konnsz]

9, Im starting to cut again, even though i got a really deep cut recently that the people i know barely believed

 

[distant stranger]

Last night was a strong 9. Wouldn't say 10. 10 in the past I would act recklessly trying to end it all with anything I could find in my reach. Today is better. Not happy but I'd rather feel nothing then what I usually do.

 

[Anonymus]

7

 

[leloyon]

I would say 9, I have a solid plan on how it should be done, full shopping list and everything and would start preparing right now if I could.
Not to worry. Just a little longer and I can start getting things in order.

 

[Anonymus]

7<

 

[.seethroughme.]

7

 

[deadtrace]

8, distractions are starting to become less effective than they were earlier in the day. Remembering and focusing on reasons, remembering isolation. Getting worse.

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

10

 

[Anonymus]

7

 

[.seethroughme.]

A strong 9 today

 

[Praestat_Mori]

currently 5

 

[アホペンギン]

9

 

[noname223]

4,5. I feel pretty fucked up. Extremely exhausted and sad. But for no concrete reason. I am still shocked how this last semester developed and whether the decline will go on like that. I am not sure what to do. I have holidays but so far I could not enjoy it. Maybe one reason for that are the withdrawal symptoms of the addictive medication. I struggle a lot for the fact that I have vacation. I should feel at least a little bit happy during this time period.

I wanted to post a recovery thread today to support other people in recovery. But I am just exhausted and sad. Posting recovery threads while despising myself and my life feels fraudulent to me. But this might be overthinking. I am just sick of feeling like that. My obessive and psychotic thoughts about that woman in college ruined me this semester and I don't know how to stop ruminating about her. I have a lot of nightmares recently. And the last night I had a nightmare about her. I just hate myself. My unfulfiled love life seemingly ruins my functionality. And I am pretty sure I cannot fix my love life. A true miracle had to happen...

 

[wristcutangel]

at a 10 right now. if someone gave me a loaded gun right now i'd shoot at my head without a second thought.

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

Seems like it's been 11 since forever...

 

[sammiechzxv]

6 I guess?

 

[777cave]

8. Only thing holding me back is access to an effective method.

 

[Shatteredhearts824]

I'm feeling a solid 6 today. The past few weeks have been a constant 8-10, but for some reason today I've had a moment of clarity

 

[Ineedthis]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.

I'm at a 4 or a 5 right now. I kinda feel like I don't deserve death and I should rather just suffer the worst pain imaginable instead

 

[Borderline]

10