Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[777cave]

8. Only thing holding me back is access to an effective method.

 

[Shatteredhearts824]

I'm feeling a solid 6 today. The past few weeks have been a constant 8-10, but for some reason today I've had a moment of clarity

 

[Ineedthis]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.

I'm at a 4 or a 5 right now. I kinda feel like I don't deserve death and I should rather just suffer the worst pain imaginable instead

 

[Borderline]

10

 

[Unattainable666]

Right at this very moment I;m an 8

 

[Dead Ghost]

8

 

[mothercoin]

10, but I can't do anything right now. When is this going to end? I feel like garbage, I don't even have the energy to describe what I'm feeling right now, I just want to die so bad but right now it's impossible. Mentally I'm begging for someone or something to kill me right now, I genuinely can't begin to comprehend how anyone is supposed to just cope with this.
What did I do to deserve this, it feels like a neverending nightmare

I definitely feel like this too. It's a neverending nightmare. I just don't see any way out. Only thing I do is eat, sleep, and think about dying. I hope something happens so I get the courage to end myself. I rate it a 9 today because I've had worse days but just barely.

 

[noname223]

4,5. For the fact that I have holidays I am pretty sad and unhappy. It should be the best time of the year. I feel so lonely. And I feel like I embarrassed me in front of my (former hopefully) crush. I have such a strong desire for a partner. It might ruin college because it destabilizes me so much. The last semester was sort of traumatizing. It feels like the house of cards becomes more and more shaky. I had to take insanely much addictive medication during this semester. So much that my ridiculously liberal psychiatrist doubted the strategy. Maybe my life falls apart next semester. It becomes more and more risky. I analyzed some possible reasons why this semester was this horrendous. I mean I just have to hope for the best. I don't have other options. My chances to actually find a partner is so low because my psychotic brain ruins everything.

I have the feeling it is no question whether I will collapse it is rather the question of when. My psychiatrist retires soon. Last time I was a little bit too honest how horrible the semester was. This is why she doubts the addictive medication strategy which the main reason why I could cope with college so far. I think it will be insanely difficult to find a psychatrist who supports this strategy. Next time I meet her I will lie and tell I am confident to go on with this strategy. Well it is my sole chance to find a job. Some people question this statement of mine in the past. Well they don't know all the other ways I tried so far. I hope I find any psychiatrist who his dumb enough to support this. I hope she recommends the new one to go on. But the last time she seemed to be very sceptical. Though her memory is pretty bad.

Fuck my life everything is so hopeless.

 

[vanadium23]

I'd say a 5 in the short term and a 9 in the long term.

 

[edvynnnn]

probably a 7 right now but it changes often

 

[sjembek]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these

3.6. Not great, not terrible

 

[pinkribbonscars]

Considering I'm committing suicide early wed morning, they're at a ten lol

 

[Minsu]

3

 

[sickbeyondmeasure]

8-10

 

[JustABug]

I would say 7 for me. I desperately don't want to exist and experience any part of life, however it is not a 10 because I'm not actively seeking out ways to end it-apart from my research online.

 

[Ferret77]

About 7/10 at this moment, but it changes frequently. Some people think I'm happy, but I'm not...

 

[purple_keeper]

5 right now bc my anxiety about college is taking over my sucidial ideation. trading one pain for another pain lol

 

[TheMetalHead]

A solid 7, I feel like I might CTB any time soon.

 

[Sapphire]

8

 

[Huggs]

9, because I'm actively planning. Only reason I'm not saying 10 is because I wouldn't consider violent painful methods.

 

[MasterOfDisguise]

5-6

 

[StolenLife]

8. I made a horrible mistake which will haunt me forever.

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

10

 

[somenone]

7, sometimes 10.

 

[julysilentwoods]

8 and -10 at the same time

 

[SlumberingSoftly]

9. So close that I can almost taste it.

 

[LostFuture.]

6. Just exhausted with this world and the needless suffering it brings. But not yet desperate enough to act, but think its just one more bad event away.

 

[Callie]

I would say 8-10.

8 because the fear is still there. But a perfect 10 for obsessing about myself dying. And I know there's no doubt in me that I want to go now if there isn't anything that hinders it.

 

[RealitySurf]

I still don't have all the things i need to but i feel like its a 7, because im still afraid of failing

 

[Dead Ghost]

8