When I'm gone nothing will hurt me, no thoughts, no emotions. No sensations. Absolute nothingness
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Lady Euthanasia
Member
- Jul 24, 2018
- 41
Oh how much I miss your lovely company, I hope you found the calming ocean of never ending heaven, I know it's late but I sent you my goodbyes dear sister ❤
Dead Meat
DOOMED
- Oct 10, 2018
- 18,394
I'm so tired,hurting,lonely and unbelievabley sad.
21Neberg
Enlightened
- Dec 17, 2018
- 1,624
My anxiety always asks 'what are people thinking of me?' But the truth is, nobody's thinking about me.
21Neberg
Enlightened
- Dec 17, 2018
- 1,624
Why people immediately notice if I have a new haircut yet do fucking jack shit to simply ask me if I'm ok even though I make it pretty damn clear that I'm not.
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,309
DOES THIS HURT YOUR EYES ?
bunny
ذخیرہ
- Oct 3, 2018
- 392
why am i called weak for being raped and surviving my abusive family? i've gone through so much and i will still be blamed. why won't they listen? why can't i just be loved and feel at home for once? i'm so scared. there's no point in believing in anyone. i just want to die
bunny
ذخیرہ
- Oct 3, 2018
- 392
Hugs bunny, I hope you feel better. You can PM me if you want to talk to me.
KitKat
Body Dysmorphic
- Dec 8, 2018
- 33
LoNatural
Dogpill Theorist.
- Sep 27, 2018
- 189
There is no path but life. Even cynics end up following the laws of the universe, we are just marionettes of the gods.I'm in a constant state of grief about the person I should have been.
LoNatural
Dogpill Theorist.
- Sep 27, 2018
- 189
I wonder what do we get out of this bad joke. Let the children of god have it all, I don't care. Don't expect me neither to praise them nor to collaborate with them.
DeadlyLiving
I can't fix it, is this where I give in?
- Jan 1, 2019
- 152
I told my mom several times that I want to kill myself and she always angrily stomped away when I did and asked me how I could do that to her and that I am not the only person with problems.
While I am glad on the one hand that she didn't put me in a psych ward or something similar, I am still sad that she hasn't done anything to even attempt to make me feel better at all and keep me from doing it. I don't think she even took it serious. Gonna be a real shocker when I am dead in the next 3 months then.
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,309
My mind and my heart are battlefields and I hate it !
therhydler
Enlightened
- Dec 7, 2018
- 1,196
Coke is so much better than pepsiLast edited:another day i wake up, another day of doing nothing all day.... sigh...my depression is paralyzing me...
DeadlyLiving
I can't fix it, is this where I give in?
- Jan 1, 2019
- 152
Appreciate this rollercoaster, Xerxes. My wife and I divorced but have been spending a lot of time last month. I think I am afraid to be without her as I don't think I can manage on my own. She goes from being totally fed up with my depression and lack of motivation to loving me and acting like we are still together. I have told her I want to ctb — she thinks this is just my running from all my commitments and not facing them. I fantasize about ctb but find myself still here with her. This cannot last though as I have shut down recently and she's not interested in being my caretaker.
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,309
I'm drinking Diet Pepsi at the moment.
Dead Meat
DOOMED
- Oct 10, 2018
- 18,394
I'm so ruined physically and mentally I'm just no good for anything.
I can totally relate as you've just described me. :(
RyanSuicide
Student
- Jan 7, 2019
- 117
I like to sleep because sleep is the cousin of death
Pulpit2018
Experienced
- Oct 8, 2018
- 287
Remember to thank the free market for producing your N and anti-emetics before you take them...
Dead Meat
DOOMED
- Oct 10, 2018
- 18,394
I'm so sorry that your in this predicament also. Many hugs to you ❤
msexit
Member
- Jan 7, 2019
- 88
I am in so much pain, beyond broken, in every way today.
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,309
I've been tortured slow-roast style for over 25 years now !
Hopeless_soul
Soon
- Jan 3, 2019
- 502
Where's the wine and the cheap whiskey? Where're the peanuts and the music?During my morning walk, after the auras stopped kicking me around, I somehow mentally placed myself in the US, one of the "sancturary states" which, if I understand properly, don't deport illegal immigrants and give them a shot at life there.
I pictured myself having a morning walk and being stopped by a police officer with whom I've had a discussion about morning walks at 5 am. The officer in this scenario was uncharacteristically pleasant, though.
