Random thoughts

[Minudah]

Everything I do is wrong. And I'm not safe anywhere

I honestly wonder every single day of my existence if I am either dead, in a coma, in a simulation, or in a dream somewhere... dreaming this whole human experience up to pass eternity...

This is a simulation for a torture experiment. They want to hurt lab rats, and they make lab rats hurt each other

 

[brighter]

I should really sleep it's 2 in the morning

 

[Redt2go]

I feel less urged to ctb when I watch 'the good place'... It's a good show but also talks about all the ways people get tortured in hell for example scorpion diapers lolol

 

[Donewith_]

How does it feel like to be a murderer ? I don't want to answer this.

 

[waived]

Virtue signalling when it actually happens is fascinating to watch.

 

[Redt2go]

I post a lot around the forum and when I'm gone I don't want people to think I was always happy about dying ... Today the thought makes me uneasy...

 

[Hopeless_soul]

Stupid infantile lies... This world is just utter bullshit!

 

[brighter]

@Nanami had only just yesterday cleaned up the " Just drank SN + DMSO" thread and people are still bickering about a topic the OP didn't open his thread to debate about.

 

[Memento Mori]

i would give my life for a successfull ctb right now

 

[Memento Mori]

I will love you for eternity,
I will love every little thing
you don't love about yourself,
& some day you will understand
how much you really meant to me,
& you will love me for eternity,
& you will love every little thing
I don't love about myself,
& some day I will understand
how much I really meant to you.

 

[Redt2go]

I will love you for eternity,
I will love every little thing
you don't love about yourself,
& some day you will understand
how much you really meant to me,
& you will love me for eternity,
& you will love every little thing
I don't love about myself,
& some day I will understand
how much I really meant to you.

Original?

 

[Memento Mori]

Original?

yes, I just wrote it. am sad atm

 

[Redt2go]

yes, I just wrote it. am sad atm

It's lovely sorry you're sad :(

 

[Memento Mori]

It's lovely sorry you're sad :(

thank you. I'm sad because once I was endlessly happy, so don't be sorry. I love my melancholy and depression while I'm cursing it, there's no medication to cure the pain in the heart or to make oneself happy without any complaint, but I would really like to share my melancholy with the person I love, on a healthy level.

 

[Hopeless_soul]

A living sonnet in my soul.

 

[Hopeless_soul]

I love my melancholy and depression while I'm cursing it, there's no medication to cure the pain in the heart or to make oneself happy without any complaint, but I would really like to share my melancholy with the person I love, on a healthy level.

I can relate to that...

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Benzo withdrawal is hell...

 

[throwaway123]

Life is cruel.

It's pointless stupid and random and yet all of us refuse to accept that. We keep deluding ourselves because none of us can handle the painful truth.

 

[Minudah]

I want to sleep but I can't sleep because the pain won't stop. My health and I'm not safe anywhere, and everything is horrifying and depressing

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I saw this billboard earlier. I feel like it's a bit much. Like you want me to give up delicious burgers by calling me dirty and cruel? Go fuck yourself.

 

[Memento Mori]

why am i wasting time waiting with ctb
why do i know it but cant do anything against it
maybe need someone to push me over the fuckin edge
one of the last nights i dreamed of a certain person killing me by stabbing and ending my rampage, out of love and not only for the sake of saving the world i would have tried to burn to ashes otherwise.

it was beautiful

 

[lostinthedream]

I saw this billboard earlier. I feel like it's a bit much. Like you want me to give up delicious burgers by calling me dirty and cruel? Go fuck yourself.

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Rofl @ the sign being over an Arbys

 

[Redt2go]

My emotions take me on rollercoasters. I go from filled with dreams to hopeless, ecstatic to depressed in minutes... It's become physically exhausting.. just when I think I can live a stable happy life the low knocks my feet from under me... Feels like skydiving only to belly flop into the ocean... It gets difficult to breath... trying CBD flower so hopefully that'll mellow me out a bit...

 

[Hopeless_soul]

My emotions take me on rollercoasters. I go from filled with dreams to hopeless, ecstatic to depressed in minutes... It's become physically exhausting.. just when I think I can live a stable happy life the low knocks my feet from under me... Feels like skydiving only to belly flop into the ocean.

That emotional rollercoaster... I can relate to that completely, sometimes I wish to open up my scalp and release the beast inside my mind...

 

[Memento Mori]

confused...

hope = delayed disappointment, but I like to enjoy the upcoming hope just for a mom now, even thoug I'l be way more disapponted afterwards . took too much benzos to calm down and flee from emotions, nodding away...oof thex're powerful lol

 

[mattwitt]

Message # 1800 for me : )

 

[Minudah]

I want to hug everyone, but everyone wants to hurt me and I'm not safe anywhere. I want to be nice but everyone wants to attack

I want the red-orange name back from 900-999 posts. I like red but I don't like pink. I hope I ctb before I get a pink name. But spamming this place helps me feel better

 

[Redt2go]

I want to hug everyone, but everyone wants to hurt me and I'm not safe anywhere. I want to be nice but everyone wants to attack

I want the red-orange name back from 900-999 posts. I like red but I don't like pink. I hope I ctb before I get a pink name. But spamming this place helps me feel better

Wow I actually came here to say I want to be a hugger too

 

[Redt2go]

It's so hard to comprehend that normal people can sit in peace with out a thought going through their mind ... At any given time I have 3 layers of thought going through mine

 

[Predestinated]

I'm just thinking about the fact that rich people can not only live easier but also die easier than poor people (and how fucked up this is). If you have money, you have more possibilities to ctb (fast and reliable).