Random thoughts

[SkyBlue]

I asked a friend for advice and seriously regret it. They have a habit of lying to me because they think if they tell me the truth I'll be upset. I can't tell if this specific friend is lying to me and now my problem is more complicated than before

Intelligence crisis... sometimes things don't go as planned, lol

 

[Redt2go]

I keep fucking buying things when I'm manic. Then I throw them all away when I'm depressed. fucks sake.

 

[Psilo]

I'm so confused lately, it drives me crazy!!!

 

[Soon4me]

Aliens exist.

 

[Redt2go]

FUCK

 

[Memento Mori]

FUCK

my life

 

[goxua]

I swear, you couldn't even make up this kind of cruelty. No wonder I have been diagnosed complex PTSD with new trauma added even to this day. My life is a horror film. I've never leaned this way but now, I almost feel the urge to CTB as retribution as well to the ending of my torment.

 

[anthomaniac]

I have been gone the site for quite a while because i feel like i'm getting better. Like i'm getting somewhere finally, but in doing so, i've realized i'm far more alone than of what i thought, and i don't really mind it but it makes me sad; realizing your friends may not care that much about you as you do for them is soul crushing, specially if you've known those friends for years, they've helped me a lot and at the same time they didn't at me getting better and getting rid of all the bad behaviours and low self steem my last toxic relationship gave me. I've grown, i've matured, i know i still have a lot more to learn in the way, but i finally don't feel like the same weakling i was before.
I find myself again missing the intimacy i had shared with friends that left me due to my past mistakes, craving to have the trust i had with them again and even wanting to go back with one of my ex's, because not even my 'best friend' whom i've known since 5 years ago makes me feel as good as they (the ones that left) did so.
I know i'm finally set in the right path for recovery, but it's going to be some lonesome years in the road of it

 

[throwaway123]

I am not ready to die and also not ready to live . I hate myself for not being ready. Why can't I just push a button and die?

I want to be dead but the process of dying is so horrible. Life dismissed.

 

[Donewith_]

I want to leave. Why should everything be so confusing and complicated

 

[throwaway123]

what the fuck
When I was kid I was told I could have anything I wanted if I worked hard enough blah blah blah

Life isn't what I expected it to be. Why did you people have to bring me into this cruel world? I am forced to do things I hate. I barely have any free will. I barely have a choice. The only choice I can make is the one between pest and cholera.
I can't even fucking die .

Who would've thought. Even in death life is unfair. You'd think at least they'd give you an honorable death but no you have to suffer.

 

[Donewith_]

I hate that it is happening this way. i am losing my sanity

 

[Soon4me]

Milk,bananas,blueberries,oranges,lighter,coffee.Post letter.

 

[sólstafir]

ahfuufaff. why do i belong to this site, not to some i don't know... whereever people are where they find meaning. why i wasn't born as someone else, why i couldn't have been almost anyone else i've ever known. i noticed already in kindergarden how different i am in a bad way. i mean... these people i knew, they all found some sort of path in their lives, they all have a personality. this i have-no-personality thing is the same shit i've dealt with every day every year. emptiness. i feel like i am just unimportant to myself. absolutely nothing that happens in this earth doesn't interest me sincerely. can't live with dead soul. and if i have to eat one more meal, i'm getting this humanly feeling i'm hungry one more time, i'm gonna ctb!! so tired of eating every day. lol. : (((((((

 

[brighter]

I'm doing eveything wrong, I'm managing to offend so many people lately. If I don't smoke weed now I swear I'll go crazy.

 

[Redt2go]

I'm doing eveything wrong, I'm managing to offend so many people lately. If I don't smoke weed now I swear I'll go crazy.

Wish we could smoke one and hang lol

 

[brighter]

Wish we could smoke one and hang lol

I wish we could too :(
On a lighter note (the pun was absolutely intended) I will smoke for the two of us so that'll have to do for now :):)

 

[thatguyakira123]

Do not know why my anxiety don't just give me a heart attack already. HAve been getting anxety attacks for the past couple of weaks and inbetween my heart is racing, I can feel it. I barely even sleep anymore. I'm tired of the feeling like nothing and being nothing and worrying for no logical reason. I just want peace.

 

[lostinthedream]

Hopefully that which is... will release me from this place sooner rather than later...

 

[Donewith_]

I can't tolerate everything. I too have a heart though it has been crashed, stamped to ground. I too feel. But, when did my feelings and I matter?
This is nothing new.
I am a doll to everyone.

 

[Life sucks]

I'm tired.

 

[Roberto]

My heart hurts. A bit of anxiety.
Sleep ... that is the solution.

 

[Christian]

Suspended

 

[waived]

Sometimes I wake up as Lauren Bacall.

 

[waived]

One of the news feeds of the New Zealand pm giving a statement has an audio issue that is making her voice sound exactly like Sarah Kerrigan, Queen Of Blades.

 

[Redt2go]

why am I waiting? seriously.

 

[NumbItAll]

I hate my stupid existence a lot. :)

 

[Manaaja]

One of the news feeds of the New Zealand pm giving a statement has an audio issue that is making her voice sound exactly like Sarah Kerrigan, Queen Of Blades.

I need to see this!

Also, someone should invent water that destroys all calories in cakes.

Also 2., instead of free public schools and libraries, we should have free food and homes. Better a well-fed child in a warm home, than an einstein who died from hunger and cold.

 

[AhG]

50 First Dates is a funny movie

 

[Going Home]

Signed a paper???
Remind me.
No, move.
Fuck it then.
Ms. Santana and Freedom too.