Random thoughts

[stellabelle]

I... finally talked to someone about suicide. I got called fucking dumb, and lost a friend quickly after.

These feelings are mine and mine alone, nobody needed to know that. Now I ended up getting more hurt in the process, I really am an idiot.

I'm sorry this happened to you. It's not your fault, it's theirs. I hope you find support here. You're not dumb.

 

[Roulette]

I'm sorry this happened to you. It's not your fault, it's theirs. I hope you find support here. You're not dumb.

Thank you. This community is really nice. Haven't cried in about a decade but maybe it's time. This hurts way too much, to the point it's physically draining. This sucks. This sucks. This sucks so much.

 

[Redt2go]

I had a lovely dream that I was working in a puppy shelter and the dog gave me a full on hug ! Lovely memory to wake up to :) It's been so long since I've had a hug.

 

[Johnnythefox]

Counting holes in tea bags.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

I farted and it smells bad ><

 

[Stepda]

Come on Scotland

 

[RainAndSadness]

I'm currently preparing myself for the bus. It looks like I can drink 200ml of water in 3 gulps. That's theoretically enough for a quick and peaceful death with N. I also made an experiment with salt water a while ago, that's quite nasty as well but I could drink it very quickly. I think it should be possible if I'm in the right mental state. It's not that much, actually. A small glass, that's it. That's all it takes for a peaceful death.

 

[leaps]

I've lost all of my enthusiasm for life

 

[Dead Meat]

I'm a freak that doesn't belong anywhere

 

[Redt2go]

I really hate myself today. It's days like this I wish I wasn't a soul sucking vampire cause I could really use a hug :( starting to feel my bottomless void again and I miss my angelic empath ex

 

[Redt2go]

Reminding myself that it's okay to be sad helps level me out most of the time

 

[Dead Meat]

I really hate myself today. It's days like this I wish I wasn't a soul sucking vampire cause I could really use a hug :( starting to feel my bottomless void again and I miss my angelic empath ex

Here's a BIG HUG FOR YOU<3❤

 

[Redt2go]

Here's a BIG HUG FOR YOU<3❤

 

[LastDay]

All I have ever wanted was to be loved and cherished. To make people happy and laugh. Life is just one big sick joke sometimes I guess.

Waiting on my method to arrive in the mail. God I hope it works, I've been praying so much that it will. I just want to be with my big sis who died in 2002 from myocarditis.

 

[stellabelle]

I really hate being woken up. And I need to lose weight. And quit smoking.

 

[thatguyakira123]

Human bodies is just a frigile thing. Why do the human race see ourselves as the hight of species? Oh be have intellgance and self awareness? Big fucking whoop. All we did with that is build boarders, created wars and screw each other for the allmightly dollar. I'm so jealous of the ignorance of animals.

 

[leaps]

Someone plz pm me

 

[Redt2go]

I'll be dead soon. wow. @Redt2go no more. crazy.

 

[leaps]

I give up

I give up
I give up
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[stellabelle]

I feel sick and miserable and wish I wasn't woken up

 

[VoloFataliDoce]

It's never enough. No matter how many goals or milestones we reach, it's never enough to end the cycle of pain. I've accomplished at least some of the things I set out to do, thinking it would bring happiness or contentment. That didn't happen. I don't know that it ever will.

 

[Eren]

Last night I could not sleep and I took 50 mg of Atarax, now I am dizzy and confused by taking that medication

 

[Sinbad]

My exit won't fail like Brexit.

 

[Johnnythefox]

My exit won't fail like Brexit.

Yeah, Fail is an understatement regarding that pile of shit.

 

[kkatt]

Really hoping someone might see this and be able to offer some reassurance.
My daughter is off backpacking in India. She's a grown woman so I can't do anything but worry. I did buy her decent insurance and persuaded her to get all the shots. Still, it's such a headfuck. She's going alone but I know what it's like. The place is full of people like her and it'll be an amazing experience. But...there's always a "but".

 

[Johnnythefox]

Really hoping someone might see this and be able to offer some reassurance.
My daughter is off backpacking in India. She's a grown woman so I can't do anything but worry. I did buy her decent insurance and persuaded her to get all the shots. Still, it's such a headfuck. She's going alone but I know what it's like. The place is full of people like her and it'll be an amazing experience. But...there's always a "but".

It's natural to worry, that's what parents do.
I'm sure she will be fine and will keep in touch, a former work mate told me his daughter travels all over the world alone sometimes sleeping on beaches.

 

[Memento Mori]

time goes on and if you're the one drawing the short straw, no one gives a fuck. since they're happy completely without you. kewl world

 

[Redt2go]

Waking up has become traumatic again.

I take sleep medicine to sleep and escape my nasty reality. It works.

I wake up every day the past few days in shock that I'm killing myself soon. Like wow really? Suicide is so extreme why do you need to do that? Then I go through the process of remembering the past few months. Then remembering the my entire child hood. Then remembering the prospects of my future. Then remembering the fact that I'm so mentally fucked that I can't process love. wtf :( thankfully this site is the only thing that distracts me.

 

[Lost1234]

I know this shouldn't be posted here, but I found it being unworthy of a new thread as well as a method .... which is why I came here...

I was quietly enjoying (chugging) a glass of wine as usual, and randomly started thinking if anyone has ever ctb over wine OD, I tried using the search bar ,and I couldn't find anything here but I found this when I googled ..... and got me wondering, Anyone know anthing about this?

"The lethal dose of alcohol is 5 to 8g/kg (3g/kg for children)– that is, for a 60kg person, 300g of alcohol can kill, which is equal to 30 standard drinks (about 1 litre of spirits or four bottles of wine)."

 

[Redt2go]

I know this shouldn't be posted here, but I found it being unworthy of a new thread as well as a method .... which is why I came here...

I was quietly enjoying (chugging) a glass of wine as usual, and randomly started thinking if anyone has ever ctb over wine OD, I tried using the search bar ,and I couldn't find anything here but I found this when I googled ..... and got me wondering, Anyone know anthing about this?

"The lethal dose of alcohol is 5 to 8g/kg (3g/kg for children)– that is, for a 60kg person, 300g of alcohol can kill, which is equal to 30 standard drinks (about 1 litre of spirits or four bottles of wine)."

I feel like youd throw up after you pass out