Random thoughts

[waterstrider]

Stood up all night due to toothache
Hopefully when my dad transfer me some emergency funds I can visit the dentist this afternoon, either get some filler or some sort of needed surgery treatment

I'm really hoping that works out for you...sounds serious.
Have you got enough ice and painkillers?
Lots of positive thoughts and hugs

 

[KleinerWolf]

I'm really hoping that works out for you...sounds serious.
Have you got enough ice and painkillers?
Lots of positive thoughts and hugs

Thank you friend.
I didn't have any but it got real serious in the last few days.
I will go fetch some from the pharmacy today.
Trying everything such as salt water rinse, elevating my head and biting on leather...
but gonna need to go for that dentist appointment.

suddenly realised how important it is to brush teeth And good dental hygiene..

my teeth are laughing at me lol

 

[waterstrider]

Cold camomile tea helps as well!
Teeth problems are the absolute worst...when I had some root canal treatment done and the dentist drilled into an infected tooth...I swear I saw angels
I'm really really hoping and wishing that hellish pain for you to be over

 

[KleinerWolf]

I never thought I would be so happy to the confirmation of my SN order.

Tooth pain is the worst, im sorry :(. I'm lucky to have "decent" oral health but 4 years ago I fainted and fell flat on my face. The 2 front teeth blew off in several pieces.
I was convulsing for a while (I don't know exactly when) but during this time my 2 co-workers who were in front of me called an ambulance.
The funny thing was when they told the ambulance that they didn't know me, that they found me on the ground. The thing is that I had a streak of almost 20 hours worked that day
(plus what I had been dragging) with small breaks in between and they did not want to have a mess, with that they already gave me to understand that I said that I was outside my working hours (lie) so that it was not something company insurance.
Al the end the teeth caps cost me practically 2 month of work , but at least they are quite decent.

Sorry to hear that.
That was not a good situation :(

Cold camomile tea helps as well!
Teeth problems are the absolute worst...when I had some root canal treatment done and the dentist drilled into an infected tooth...I swear I saw angels
I'm really really hoping and wishing that hellish pain for you to be over

If root canal treatment is needed for severe tooth decay then maybe I'm gonna experience that today or tomorrow as well...

I guess u could say it's bit of pain in the arse tooth...

thanks for the kind words though.
Teeth problem are honestly the worst.

 

[throwaway123]

When I think of my future I don't see anything.

 

[stygal]

Once again defeated by my own physical abilities.
I want to throw this body in the trash.

 

[http-410]

I don't get it.

They said they'd "support" me, and when I ask for support (which is very difficult for me by itself), they're annoyed.

I'm sorry to come up with this crazy idea to ask for support when I needed it. I'm sorry to be a parasite. I'm sorry. I won't do it ever again.

 

[Sensei]

Yippee ki-yay! Online education starts on Monday all over the country and once again I can go into semi-seclusion. :D

 

[GrumpyFrog]

My co-worker got sick and I got stuck with her workload on top of mine, plus my new manager decided to request me to write a report with an explanation for 162 supposed messups made by our department, about 80% of which weren't mine, but were made by either the other girl on the sick leave, or the previous other girl that quit, and 90% of which ended up being either debatably, or definitely not our departments fault at all. But the report had to be done by the end of the same day. As a result I worked for over 15 hours when I'm supposed to work for 8 and considering I have a second job, by now I've been at work for 36 hours almost non-stop, and there's about 10 more hours to go. And yet I'm expecting to get seriously chewed out or possibly even fired, because I forgot about one of my promotional campaigns yesterday. I find the fact that this campaign is called "Facing burnout in the workplace with empathy" and is all about me sending out educational material for managers about ways to care about their employees mental and physical health both sadly ironic, and a shining example of how fake and rotten modern "corporate culture" is.

 

[KleinerWolf]

My co-worker got sick and I got stuck with her workload on top of mine, plus my new manager decided to request me to write a report with an explanation for 162 supposed messups made by our department, about 80% of which weren't mine, but were made by either the other girl on the sick leave, or the previous other girl that quit, and 90% of which ended up being either debatably, or definitely not our departments fault at all. But the report had to be done by the end of the same day. As a result I worked for over 15 hours when I'm supposed to work for 8 and considering I have a second job, by now I've been at work for 36 hours almost non-stop, and there's about 10 more hours to go. And yet I'm expecting to get seriously chewed out or possibly even fired, because I forgot about one of my promotional campaigns yesterday. I find the fact that this campaign is called "Facing burnout in the workplace with empathy" and is all about me sending out educational material for managers about ways to care about their employees mental and physical health both sadly ironic, and a shining example of how fake and rotten modern "corporate culture" is.

hopefully the campaign was just bit of internal side-show,
I hope it makes no difference to your job security.

46 hours is pretty darn challenging.
this has got to be one of those once or twice in a lifetime experience.

I'd assume you get paid for extra hours worked,
certainly is annoying when co-workers bail out.

Hope you get some much needed sleep soon.
If someone bail out next time, might be worth telling your manager it exceeds your physical threshold to do extra time.
46 hours no sleep is torturing :(

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I wanted to talk to her and maybe arrange a meeting with her after my school ends but now there's a new stay-at-home order so I guess I won't be able to do that. It's just as well. She hasn't messaged with me in a while and I'm probably creeping her out. I'm trying to move on but there's just fucking nowhere to move to.

 

[MrBlue]

My whole life has been people telling me to do something or that something will happen and then immediately making it harder or shutting me out. Then I get punished for struggling in the first place.

 

[demuic]

Let down. Stressed. In physical pain. Annoyed. Unfocused. I just want a break for once.

 

[Donk]

Wondering if my SS friend CTB'ed or she's trying to avoid me?

 

[Miss_Takes]

Suicide by Murder ... does anyone else sleep w8th the doors open in the hope that someone might walk in and do the job for them?
I have often wondered if there is a place to sell my life/death/last breath ...

 

[stygal]

I want it to end
my thoughts
my feelings
my pain
not being able to perceive
would be the only relief
live can still bring

 

[wasteoftimeletssleep]

Daydreaming about becoming an animal, any animal besides human is something I do every day. Just seems more simple.

Suicide by Murder ... does anyone else sleep w8th the doors open in the hope that someone might walk in and do the job for them?
I have often wondered if there is a place to sell my life/death/last breath ...

I've never thought of this. Maybe subconsciously somehow, because I fall asleep listening to crime shows. I find great comfort in hearing about a good snuff.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I thought I was almost guaranteed to graduate but I've been getting fucked last minute by my capstone exam. I guess that's what I get for having none of this information sink in. If it really goes bad, maybe I'll ctb sooner since I won't have to worry about finding a job at all. Wouldn't that be nice?

 

[stygal]

What if I don't want to stand up?

Just to sit down in an office to work.
Just to go home to lay down again.
Just to eat, shit, repeat.
Just to type random words on a screen.
Just to live in an endless routine.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

This was supposed to be a party. Instead I blacked out and stumbled to bed after having 2 drinks, leaving my poor friend stranded, then woke up to my roommate having sex with some chick right next to me in my bed and had to pretend to be asleep. Good thing it didn't take too long. All I've caught of the party was cleaning the aftermath.
I guess I'm way too exhausted to be able to have fun, even when an opportunity comes up.

 

[http-410]

I don't know how to proceed. If I'd do what I think about, I'll lose the calmness I need. What will happen if. What am I waiting for. I'm stuck.

 

[MindFrog]

I don't have anything to look forward to, so why am I still here? Everthing just makes me feel so numb. I should be grateful for the things that I have now, but I end up feeling apathetic. Just end me already.

 

[http-410]

Thinking about quitting it as it would make things easier.

What am I still doing here. It's always the same questions. I just don't know what do to next.

Accepting the truth is hard.

 

[http-410]

tired, just tired

 

[Rue89]

Starting to isolate myself, not so much that I want to, but feel like I need to, to protect myself from losing anyone else, to protect myself from hurting.

 

[Sensei]

My hope is waning. I'm not sure there really is a solution anymore. If that's the case, it's just a question of time.

 

[ForensicallyAware]

Psychic vampires have took it all

 

[Deleted member 23374]

Is a warm grave an odd thought ?

 

[Wraith]

Today was such a shit day. I don't have the best coping mechanisms. I usually turn to alcohol or anti-anxiety meds, but I had neither, so I self-harmed for the first time in 2 years.

Really sucks.

 

[Delia]

*something bad happens*
Sn owners: ay it's okay i haven't eaten yet