mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,307
Why do they have the slowest moron working the speedy express check out lane in a store sometimes ?
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I purchased a sketchbook, a mechanical pencil and a pen to cover up my sketches today. Here is a guess: It will take two weeks for them to deliver the stuff where I live.
I am dead in life, I can not stand being this way, I have tried throughout my life, in a million ways to try to feel good with others, try to feel integrated, try to be a fairly normal person, but I can not, I feel extremely alone , and the problem is not the others, it's me, I just want to leave this world with a fucking time.
Nobody actually cares and its all lies. Then they pretend to care when you want to suicide. They make your life shit then force you to continue with it.
I hate it when people on here try and convince me that there is an afterlife. I don't reply to threads that say there is an afterlife saying, "NO THERE'S NOT!" and trying to convince the OP there is not one. If someone starts a thread that says there isn't an afterlife, I'll agree with them. But I won't try to argue with people who do believe in one. I respect yours, please respect mine and kindly piss off. I'm not interested in having a debate with you when it won't go anywhere.
I really feel if members disappear. I don't know if they ctb or not. Its sad but what to do. This life sucks in every way possible. Seeing time moves and end everything brutally.
I know some people want to be forgotten and some think we don't care. But at the end, unless I ctb, I'll still carry these memories. Tbh even some people got astonished how I still remember them after long disconnecting.
I don't feel time, everything happens like it happens just yesterday and before hundred years in the same time.
But you know what's sadness? When we talk together and want to leave but some couldn't. If we get a button and could go together it will be very great.
I know maybe this looks like nonsense. But I'll be sad for the endings in this brutal machine. And yea I feel very sad for online friends, websites and other non-physical. Not like how some people make it inferior.
I know some people want to be forgotten and some think we don't care. But at the end, unless I ctb, I'll still carry these memories. Tbh even some people got astonished how I still remember them after long disconnecting.
I don't feel time, everything happens like it happens just yesterday and before hundred years in the same time.
But you know what's sadness? When we talk together and want to leave but some couldn't. If we get a button and could go together it will be very great.
I know maybe this looks like nonsense. But I'll be sad for the endings in this brutal machine. And yea I feel very sad for online friends, websites and other non-physical. Not like how some people make it inferior.
I don't think it's nonsense. I felt a lot of what are you saying. I also feel really bad we are so far away from each other...
The same. Exactly.
Yeah, it's funny how you can care about a community of people who want to kill themselves, and still respect their wishes when they do so.
Just to clarify. This has nothing to do with not respecting one choice. But as a human who wants to ctb, this puts more pressure because of many things including time moving, less of support and facing the ugly planet and prolifers more lonely. Seeing the disappearing of special people who can understand you in depth is not something easy at all.
I do not spend a fucking day where I do not cry, I can not deal with this fucking shit anymore.
All this assholes wanting to massively make babies as if it was no tomorrow...
Sick and tired of being sick and tired
Life is just a trap. A lone consciousness with a body prone to many hazards. Although very simple, straightforward and clear but almost everyone ignore it.
Everyone wants to distract themselves from how life can be unbearable and how things end no matter what happens.
Everyone wants to distract themselves from how life can be unbearable and how things end no matter what happens.
I'm still physically ugly as I was in my teenage years, yet my face shows no signs of aging. Genetics and its wonderful tricks
BxK
Member
- Aug 20, 2018
- 38
I just wanted a loving and loyal girl to marry, somebody who I could work hard for, to support fully, make happy, to be faithful to me and be faithful to, to have kids with. To be with forever.
I would give my all for her, I would. Hell, I was saving myself just that, still am, I suppose, even though I know I won't find her.
But that dream won't come true. Sure, I have above average looks, but I'm awkward, stupid, and lack any real personailty. The only girls I've ever attracted just wanted sex, I don't want that gross type of thing, I'm not after just sex. That stuff should only be with one person, in my view. I only had one girl who liked me, and I missed that chance, big time.
I'm 20 years old, have no friends, no bonds, and no personality or hope, I've become hate filled and numb. That dream I have has no chance anymore.
I would give my all for her, I would. Hell, I was saving myself just that, still am, I suppose, even though I know I won't find her.
But that dream won't come true. Sure, I have above average looks, but I'm awkward, stupid, and lack any real personailty. The only girls I've ever attracted just wanted sex, I don't want that gross type of thing, I'm not after just sex. That stuff should only be with one person, in my view. I only had one girl who liked me, and I missed that chance, big time.
I'm 20 years old, have no friends, no bonds, and no personality or hope, I've become hate filled and numb. That dream I have has no chance anymore.
This is such a beautiful dress :D I'm sure you look gorgeous with it as well :D
This one. I should receive it in the next 2 weeks, it got shipped today. It looks very feminine. I'll also get my hair done and buy some fitting accessorizes, for example a choker, probably some stockings and fitting shoes. My goal is to leave as feminine and beautiful as possible.
BxK
Member
- Aug 20, 2018
- 38
Agreed it's a really pretty dress, just saw that, Rain!
I hope in whatever afterlife that happens, you find yourself in an eternal place with only people and things you love, no bad people or things. Just peace and happiness.
(Sorry if those words are hollow on a screen, but I do mean them.)
Have a good night/day!
RaptorHavx
Drowning in loneliness...
- Aug 15, 2018
- 120
Just like listening to myself... Spending many, many years alone sucks so badly that I can't bare it. Like seriously, what kind of socialising is saying hello to few people at work and staff at market when you do shopping ?
Seriously, and after this I am still the one who gives likes massively...
I'm going to deactivate the like alerts as I should did long time ago. They don't deserve my attention.
I wish I was a bad person so I could cut my mother's tongue and force her to eat it back.
She just doesn't shut up. Ever.
And I have nowhere else to go. Boy, death can't come soon enough for me.
She just doesn't shut up. Ever.
And I have nowhere else to go. Boy, death can't come soon enough for me.
Are you calling me bad person for wishing that?
I understand you, it's crap, in my case it's not that I'm "shy" is that I really can not, I've tried to "force myself" and it's completely impossible, it's a fucking shit.
BxK
Member
- Aug 20, 2018
- 38
Haha... Just had a fucked up dream.
It felt like it was a month long... I had friends, a bunch of people who I never met in life, we had genuine bonds, we did that cliche friendship stuff, and we all hung out everyday like it was a sitcom or something.
It was like one of those Persona games, and we were all great friends and so close, it felt like we spent a long time together. I was a brighter version of myself, I felt so damn happy.
When I woke up, I felt a strong despair I hadn't felt in awhile.
Ha, I never knew what a genuine bond felt like, I didn't wanna know, because now I'm alone again. I guess my mind is telling me what I wish for. How pathetic, I could almost laugh.
It felt like it was a month long... I had friends, a bunch of people who I never met in life, we had genuine bonds, we did that cliche friendship stuff, and we all hung out everyday like it was a sitcom or something.
It was like one of those Persona games, and we were all great friends and so close, it felt like we spent a long time together. I was a brighter version of myself, I felt so damn happy.
When I woke up, I felt a strong despair I hadn't felt in awhile.
Ha, I never knew what a genuine bond felt like, I didn't wanna know, because now I'm alone again. I guess my mind is telling me what I wish for. How pathetic, I could almost laugh.
LoverofDeath
Member
- Aug 11, 2018
- 91
Wishing is fine. The bad thing would be to actually do it.Are you calling me bad person for wishing that?
Well, I don't know. To be fair, i wish for bad things to happen to some particular people sometimes. I wonder if that makes me a bad person.
Straight from Game of Thrones
You answered your own question. We have limited control over our thoughts and feelings. It's okay to be angry or wish ill on someone. It's not okay to actively seek to make someone's life worse.
I wish for the same thing sometimes, but I usually take it back or feel remorse if it actually happens. People are how they are for a reason; that's why my goal is to kill myself and not others.
The human life is too much for me, I despise every second of it. I'd rather be a bird or a toad or something.
There are so many species on this planet and I had to be born a fucking human... FFS, why? >.<
There are so many species on this planet and I had to be born a fucking human... FFS, why? >.<
