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to me it's the same IRL. When we're gone, we become just that shred of a "forgotten memory" a couple of weeks after the funeral service has took place, and that shred stays the same forever, unless something related to our death pops up and makes everybody remember for a while. Then the cycle repeats
RainAndSadness
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- Jun 12, 2018
- 2,150
This one. I should receive it in the next 2 weeks, it got shipped today. It looks very feminine. I'll also get my hair done and buy some fitting accessorizes, for example a choker, probably some stockings and fitting shoes. My goal is to leave as feminine and beautiful as possible.
Anarchy
Invisible anarchist
- Jul 9, 2018
- 383
They say that if you want something done right, do it yourself. Well, no one on Earth is going to comfort me, so I might as well comfort myself by giving myself death.
They'll say that it's wrong, but what do they expect?
They don't like my way of coping, but they don't help me to cope - they just shun me. You should either help someone with their suffering, or let them deal with it in their own way . Condemning someone for planning to die and then not even trying to comfort them is appalling. It's an act of trapping someone with their pain. How can they trap people with their pain and not expect them to end it? How can they mistreat someone for trying to cope with pain that they've added to?
If they're so opposed to me dying, why wouldn't they even value my life?
They'll say that it's wrong, but what do they expect?
They don't like my way of coping, but they don't help me to cope - they just shun me. You should either help someone with their suffering, or let them deal with it in their own way . Condemning someone for planning to die and then not even trying to comfort them is appalling. It's an act of trapping someone with their pain. How can they trap people with their pain and not expect them to end it? How can they mistreat someone for trying to cope with pain that they've added to?
If they're so opposed to me dying, why wouldn't they even value my life?
I am alive, as you might have noticed by now. Well, "alive", anyways. I appreciate the concern.
It's gorgeous! Nice choice.
This one. I should receive it in the next 2 weeks, it got shipped today. It looks very feminine. I'll also get my hair done and buy some fitting accessorizes, for example a choker, probably some stockings and fitting shoes. My goal is to leave as feminine and beautiful as possible.
I like it.
This one. I should receive it in the next 2 weeks, it got shipped today. It looks very feminine. I'll also get my hair done and buy some fitting accessorizes, for example a choker, probably some stockings and fitting shoes. My goal is to leave as feminine and beautiful as possible.
RainAndSadness
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- Jun 12, 2018
- 2,150
RaptorHavx
Drowning in loneliness...
- Aug 15, 2018
- 120
Technically Planck length is the smallest thing possible lol, from what I know at least
RaptorHavx
Drowning in loneliness...
- Aug 15, 2018
- 120
Let me guess, you've watched Higurashi ? Well, that was a real horror. I mean dying and being pushed into alternative world with whole memory saved, and then again dying , commiting suicide or being killed , betrayed by someone... then again. Jesus... hopefully it's just a "fairy tale"...
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RaptorHavx
Drowning in loneliness...
- Aug 15, 2018
- 120
Oh my... I feel Gothic influence... actually I love the way it looks.
This one. I should receive it in the next 2 weeks, it got shipped today. It looks very feminine. I'll also get my hair done and buy some fitting accessorizes, for example a choker, probably some stockings and fitting shoes. My goal is to leave as feminine and beautiful as possible.
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RainAndSadness
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- Jun 12, 2018
- 2,150
Haha definitely. There is lots of influence. It's supposed to be a gothic lolita dress, maybe you heard that term before if you're familiar with japanese culture. I'm glad to see people like that dress. I hope I'm gonna be pretty.
RaptorHavx
Drowning in loneliness...
- Aug 15, 2018
- 120
Wow, it's so surprising to find people enjoying same things or having similar thoughts, not even mentioning about understanding each other with hopeless life...
This date cannot come fast enough. I chose my date for a reason and there's another date I really want to get it done by.
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,307
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,307
The very first time I ever played the super lotto I got the first 3 numbers that popped up and for like 2 seconds I thought I was going to get all 6 numbers and win millions
Video games are about the only thing I can tolerate to pass the time. I don't even always enjoy it, but it keeps the darkness away.
My only friend is someone I met online years ago and I keep inviting him to play with me and he declines, usually saying he's busy or "maybe soon" and then it never happens. But then the next day or sometimes even earlier I see him playing something else with someone else and it pisses me off.
I would say this guy isn't my friend anymore, but we do still talk (though I'm the one initiating conversation usually) and he's nice and all of that. It's just extremely annoying how I always seem to be his last option, especially when I tell him I'll play literally anything.
I wish he'd either make an effort to be my friend or just fuck off so I don't have to wonder if we're really friends.
My only friend is someone I met online years ago and I keep inviting him to play with me and he declines, usually saying he's busy or "maybe soon" and then it never happens. But then the next day or sometimes even earlier I see him playing something else with someone else and it pisses me off.
I would say this guy isn't my friend anymore, but we do still talk (though I'm the one initiating conversation usually) and he's nice and all of that. It's just extremely annoying how I always seem to be his last option, especially when I tell him I'll play literally anything.
I wish he'd either make an effort to be my friend or just fuck off so I don't have to wonder if we're really friends.
I hate being awake and sleeping because I seem to always have bad dreams. I can't remember the last time I had a positive or a neutral dream was. I just want nothingness.
Every day now I wake up emotional wreck. I feel like I'm just spiraling further and further down. Everything in me says run home.. but there's no home to run to.
Yes, I've seen the serie, I can not stand to stay alive I find myself fatal I'm just fine when I'm asleep.
I know it sounds like a teen crisis, but I really feel bad. The only thing that really stops me is knowing that it would hurt my mother a lot. For years I have tried to feel good but I have not succeeded, I am tired of feeling like an alien, that everything costs me double, of not being able to be a normal person.
Midnight
Beyond solace
- Jun 30, 2018
- 624
Funny how it's just our brain tormenting ourselves until we are dead .. the body tries it's best but that grey lump is making us suffer.
We take pills just to try and make our brain work in a different way but it keeps fighting against it. Yet our body is just the opposite ... It tries to heal itself (not always possible but hey)
We take pills just to try and make our brain work in a different way but it keeps fighting against it. Yet our body is just the opposite ... It tries to heal itself (not always possible but hey)
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RaptorHavx
Drowning in loneliness...
- Aug 15, 2018
- 120
Sadly I have to totally agree with you.
I feel like a piece of shit that can not lead a normal social life, like a fucking alien I hate myself.
Querry1
life is unfair, ctb or get away
- Aug 16, 2018
- 180
I wonder how many people get high because they can't handle the life
I should stop discussing specially in real life; I feel the impulse of complaining with my family, my friends, strangers in the train... It's so pleasant specially when you piss off other people but I think it doesn't do anything good to me. I have a love-hate relationship with discussions.
Nobody changes its mind and less there, so I simply bother them as much as I can. Fuck that people, closed mind assholes, homophobes and selfish as fuck people.
Nobody changes its mind and less there, so I simply bother them as much as I can. Fuck that people, closed mind assholes, homophobes and selfish as fuck people.
Fylobatica
Inactive
- Apr 1, 2018
- 365
I'm currently doing the same. But please don't stop producing your unique avatars :)
To be honest, I came back after a quick break to hear more about your stories about France
I don't remember more, sorry
And I don't want too... I have very bad memories of my stay there
I am 23 years old and I am not able to socialize normally with anyone, a weirdo, when I was a kid I thought I would change when I reach adulthood but the truth is that no, I will spend my whole life alone, I hate it fuck I hate all This fucking shit.
I realized today that I have a tendency to guilty trip others. Basically, I am an insufferable bitch.
RainAndSadness
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- Jun 12, 2018
- 2,150
I totally agree with you.
By the way, that was one of the first anime I've ever watched.
