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¡Si hablas español mándame un mensaje privado!
- Apr 9, 2018
- 360
What's wrong with Anime? It's everything but scary. You should watch Attack on titan, that's what I am watching now.
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I have nothing against it but for some reason, it makes me feel very anxious.
I don't know why. I feel they are staring me. And that design makes me feel uncomfortable.
And yes I found it scary, I'm unabled to enjoy it at all.
Plankter
欠陥人
- Aug 14, 2018
- 174
I remember when i was 5 or 6 (which makes this one of my earliest memories) i was wandering around in the house, bored, trying to find what to do and i stopped for a few moments and thought like "whats the point ? Why do i want to have fun anyway ? Why do i even live ?" And it had bugged me for a while. Im still fascinated that one my earliest memories is about thinking about how meaningless everything is.
Midnight
Beyond solace
- Jun 30, 2018
- 624
Anyone else here afraid they might still be here for a long time? Unable to push themselves over the edge no matter how low they get? A method is one thing but finding something to push you up untill that point is my problem. First thing that comes to people's mind is "you're not ready" but tbh after more than 15 years of thinking this way i don't think i'll ever be ready enough. I envy the people who come in here weeks or day's before they ctb.
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Even here there is people who fuck us with this shit.
Yes, I can't overcome my fear and I'm afraid of remaining for a long time. One of my worst nigtmares is having a long life.
Again to this, this is super annoying, like if some of us weren't 10000% sure of what we are doing and what we want.
Oh god, I have so much anxiety in this moment, sorry if it looks aggresive.
Midnight
Beyond solace
- Jun 30, 2018
- 624
It's difficult .. not being "ready"=/= not being suicidal if that makes sence. I have difficulty putting it into words.
Some people saying "you're not ready" as if they mean you should overthink your depression/suicidality and try being happy instead and see if it works out. Well after 15 years of depression i think i can pretty much conclude there isn't a fix for my issue that is nothing short of a miracle.
Others may mean something different when they say those words idk .. it's all very difficult
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oh man, this would turn out to be an excellent plot for a horror story from the depths of the WWW.
Today I tried to stay "positive" and actually do something that's supposed to be good, especially for my overall health (going out for a walk with somebody I care at least a bit, after years spent about 99% alone) but needless to say the whole initiative backfired on me, lol. It was kind of dull, that "expectations VS reality" type of thing. Nevermind, I'll get back to bed for now
The last day I had 32 likes of @Caerula in less thsn one hour.
Will she beat her mark?
Will she beat her mark?
I just came back to this forum and saw a bunch of new posts XDDD I'm enjoying reading them XDDDThe last day I had 32 likes of @Caerula in less thsn one hour.
Will she beat her mark?
Awww sometimes I take breaks from internet but I love this place too much to actually leave. And your posts are always like on point :DWelcome back and don't leave. I'll try to give more enjoyment
My mind is too numbed for writting something decent
I wanted to post something related with my feelings but they don't want to go out
I wanted to post something related with my feelings but they don't want to go out
@Tiburcio my prophecy was right! Your nickname eventually became red.
"I foresee that you will become the undisputed ruler of every forum on Earth".
ge0rge
the satanic mechanic
- Jul 29, 2018
- 648
I for one welcome our new Spanish overlord
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,307
How small does small go? Is infinite smallness even possible?
infinite smallness = exponentiation of nothingness until both sides collide
strength always wins, to stop an unstoppable force the immovable object would require to be located in more dimensions than the one in which the vector of the force travels
There is no smallest positive real number
RaptorHavx
Drowning in loneliness...
- Aug 15, 2018
- 120
I had some very weird dream today in which I was feeling extremely dizzy and hallucinating. Odd place. Waking up from sleep in some room with other sleeping people. Basically I was waking up in dream in dream and in another dream... it was like nightmare hallucination. When I finally woke up, and was afraid it's not reality again for 10th time or so, I couldn't bloody move my body even a bit, I was paralysed. Being scared as f*** after a while I could finally move bits of my body and eventually raise myself. Looking at clock broke my mind. It felt like hours have passed but in fact it was almost the same time as when I went to sleep. It takes me a WHILE to fall asleep. Then how the hell ? What happened to me... I've missed my antidepressant dose, but seriously ? This thing was... I have no words...
Argh, I logged on facebook to stalk someone and then my crush's name popped on the search bar, almost made me cry... yet another reason to end this pathetic life.
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,307
