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I don't know how it how it happened, it seems to have happened very quickly but I'm a full on alcoholic... :( I haven't eaten today but I've had 2 full bottles of wine
Also I accidentally opened this site in front of a coworker, pray for e
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I just don't fit in anywhere I never have belonged or accepted by anyone. I feel so sad,lonely, tired and just completely destroyed physically and mentally. There's nothing left for me.
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taking a break from ss. i need to exchange mails with some users or at least give them one too, am always too lazy to make a new one for my other internet stuff lol.
i hope to see many of you posting here again, and not only sad shit but also some positive evolvings! good luck, it's up on you and your condition to get it (in most cases)
peace ♥
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By watching all of the x-files in a row you get to see a lot of hidden stuff. I haven't watched some of these episodes since I was a kid and had forgotten how great gillian anderson is.
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I take solace in the fact there is no afterlife. At least I wouldn't have to either worship a deity for all eternity or burn and be tortured forever. At least when I pass on, I'll actually be able to rest finally.
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I finally talked to my wife tonight, a whole 2 hours and 23 minutes of talking made my night. We are getting a divorce and I will accept that. But just knowing that she is ok and happy has made me ok and happy! I'll always love her no matter what. It hurts knowing we are over, but I'm happy knowing that she is ok!
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Everytime i read the news or hear of someone dying i wish i could trade places with them. So many who want to live die and so many who want to die live. Imagine if we could just give our physical life to someone else (not the life we live but their own). Way Less guilt throwing away your own life. Would prob be difficult to decide who deserved it most, id probably give mine to the youngest, or perhaps someone who is really needed on earth.
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Everytime i read the news or hear of someone dying i wish i could trade places with them. So many who want to live die and so many who want to die live. Imagine if we could just give our physical life to someone else (not the life we live but their own). Way Less guilt throwing away your own life. Would prob be difficult to decide who deserved it most, id probably give mine to the youngest, or perhaps someone who is really needed on earth.
So after my depression a couple of weeks ago I was feeling this odd sense of calm and not giving a shit. It was so weird that I actually was able to set up a job interview for myself on Tuesday. Now this has happen before, inbetween my bouts of depression and anxiety I get a few moments of calm. This one actually lasted a week, now this is due to the fact that I did cut myself and had a very low self esteem at the time. Last night I could feel my anxiety trying to come back. Typical of it wanting to resurface when I have an interview on Tuesday.
And then ofcourse my abusive ass hat of a brother have to make things worse. So at nights, I sit and hang with my dogs, they are my babies. The youngest and smallest of the 2 doesn't like my brother and barks at him. Tonight, my brother came home from watching a movie and as usual the small dog was barking at him. Now that dog only barks but he neither rushes nor bites. Because I was there my brother tried to provoke the dog into attacking him by walking towards him and telling the dog to attack him, the dog back tracked but was still barking until he came behind me. My brother then went to the stairs and the dog followed him but at this point the dog was silent. Then my brother said to the dog "The Next Time You Bark At Me I Will Hit You"
That's when my anxiety got triggered. My brother once threw a puppy from over the railing from atop the very same stairs, a two story stairs, all because he was angry and the puppy came licking at his feet for attention. My older dog, he stomped on his belly repeatedly one night because he was studying and wanted silence. Luckily my dog was ok and not bleeding internally. I'm glad I'm confident now to stand up against him and I've protected my dogs and my mom from him before, and yet still he's able to trigger my anxiety simply because he is an abusive person and his abusive history towards me, my parents and all the pets we've had before.
Why am I afraid of this attention whore? And because I've stood up to him before, he doesn't do or say anything to them unless someone is around. Gotta play the victim. The only reasons why he did what he did tonight was to either provoke the dog into attacking him so he can attack the dog and play the victim or to provoke me into attacking him because he attacked the dog, thus playing the victim again.
The fucking attention whore is sleeping right now. I hope he is fucking happy cuz now my fucking head is in a loop, my heart is fucking racing and the only way to fix it is to cut but I'm scared to cut because of my mistake last time. Fuck why do I have to be the one that dies, why can't he just die and leave everyone in this house at peace. I feel like I've failed my dog by not defending him tonight, I was more concerned with not going to jail or not getting beaten up.
Wondering how long will it take until my colleges figure out that I'm a reclusive suicidal misanthrope and get me fired. Hoping I can get at least a 1 month's worth of salary.
So after my depression a couple of weeks ago I was feeling this odd sense of calm and not giving a shit. It was so weird that I actually was able to set up a job interview for myself on Tuesday. Now this has happen before, inbetween my bouts of depression and anxiety I get a few moments of calm. This one actually lasted a week, now this is due to the fact that I did cut myself and had a very low self esteem at the time. Last night I could feel my anxiety trying to come back. Typical of it wanting to resurface when I have an interview on Tuesday.
And then ofcourse my abusive ass hat of a brother have to make things worse. So at nights, I sit and hang with my dogs, they are my babies. The youngest and smallest of the 2 doesn't like my brother and barks at him. Tonight, my brother came home from watching a movie and as usual the small dog was barking at him. Now that dog only barks but he neither rushes nor bites. Because I was there my brother tried to provoke the dog into attacking him by walking towards him and telling the dog to attack him, the dog back tracked but was still barking until he came behind me. My brother then went to the stairs and the dog followed him but at this point the dog was silent. Then my brother said to the dog "The Next Time You Bark At Me I Will Hit You"
That's when my anxiety got triggered. My brother once threw a puppy from over the railing from atop the very same stairs, a two story stairs, all because he was angry and the puppy came licking at his feet for attention. My older dog, he stomped on his belly repeatedly one night because he was studying and wanted silence. Luckily my dog was ok and not bleeding internally. I'm glad I'm confident now to stand up against him and I've protected my dogs and my mom from him before, and yet still he's able to trigger my anxiety simply because he is an abusive person and his abusive history towards me, my parents and all the pets we've had before.
Why am I afraid of this attention whore? And because I've stood up to him before, he doesn't do or say anything to them unless someone is around. Gotta play the victim. The only reasons why he did what he did tonight was to either provoke the dog into attacking him so he can attack the dog and play the victim or to provoke me into attacking him because he attacked the dog, thus playing the victim again.
The fucking attention whore is sleeping right now. I hope he is fucking happy cuz now my fucking head is in a loop, my heart is fucking racing and the only way to fix it is to cut but I'm scared to cut because of my mistake last time. Fuck why do I have to be the one that dies, why can't he just die and leave everyone in this house at peace. I feel like I've failed my dog by not defending him tonight, I was more concerned with not going to jail or not getting beaten up.
what could i say now. i want to say so much but i dont know where to begin, what to not forget, and what to leave out because its just lame talking. i am just gonna say: i wish you all the best. please dont die if you can, and even if you die dont die! we all love life, consciousness, feeling :)
and go to a fucking festivel even i have to do that! go and check out defqon one sunday lightshow :D
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I was always so desperate for a partner but at this point I don't even want it anymore. Cause I'd have to be me in that partnership. I just want to die instead. 7 more weeks. Hopefully.
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I hate having anxiety. I have a job interview at 10am, it's currently 3am and my anxiety has me up with all kind of stupid thoughts. So I've decided to never sleep, I barely sleep at all anyways. Maybe then I'll be able to sleep.
I am useless.. a waste
I am confused the same way as today from as long as I know myself
This sounds harsh.. but I don't think I can do this and am fit for this
I don't want anything
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I actually got a job but worthless me had a panic attack and let anxiety take over and I didn't show up. I hate myself. I'm nothing but a failure. My ex is right I'll never amount to anything and I'm completely inept and stupid for someone in their 20s.
I actually got a job but worthless me had a panic attack and let anxiety take over and I didn't show up. I hate myself. I'm nothing but a failure. My ex is right I'll never amount to anything and I'm completely inept and stupid for someone in their 20s.
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