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NegativeSymptoms

NegativeSymptoms

trying to recover
Sep 4, 2019
156
There are no distractions or escape other than CTB. I wish I could feel sadness at least or cry, but no. Anyone relates?
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
I can relate to this because I feel as if my emotions were dying little by little.
I feel mentally dead. I guess killing my body is the only left thing to do.
 
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neverever

Member
Dec 10, 2020
77
There are no distractions or escape other than CTB. I wish I could feel sadness at least or cry, but no. Anyone relates?
Yes! I relate to this very strongly. I feel as though my brain is dead and my body merely needs to be enabled to follow.
 
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YukiFox

YukiFox

Pastel demon
Dec 8, 2018
320
Surely. Despite I'm an intelligent woman, I talk 3 languages, have a decent computer to programming and design basic stuffs, even with the support of my family and friends, I feel that I'm permanently broken. Since my last attempt I want to die, and I'm seriously thinking to trying again in a couple of days. I feel in a no return path. I'm in the edge of the complete insanity.
 
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justanotherstar

justanotherstar

Life: you can’t fire me, I quit.
Nov 23, 2020
345
I relate. I feel like my mind died a long time ago, I'm just a vessel, nothing more, nothing less
 
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UiopQwerty

UiopQwerty

Mage
Dec 17, 2020
544
When Im out. Dealing with REAL life or people I feel empty and kind of without energy.
Here. It seems I come alive. I guess I can relate to people here...

Whoa! That came out almost positive!
:O
 
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Doormat

Doormat

Life is never so bad that it can't get any worse
May 22, 2020
86
There are no distractions or escape other than CTB. I wish I could feel sadness at least or cry, but no. Anyone relates?
Oh hell yes! I want so much to look forward to something or to be excited about my future but all I see is more treacle to swim through
 
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NodusTollens

NodusTollens

Nov 17, 2020
989
There are no distractions or escape other than CTB. I wish I could feel sadness at least or cry, but no. Anyone relates?

Numb & Angry.

Generally speaking, I feel like I don't have access to my emotions- at least not all of them. "Positive" emotions feel hollow & "negative" emotions are muted, save for anger. It's the only emotion that still feels not only real, but overwhelmingly intense.
 
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Teal_Blue_Dreams

Arcanist
Sep 15, 2020
401
There are no distractions or escape other than CTB. I wish I could feel sadness at least or cry, but no. Anyone relates?
I completely relate to this. I feel like a ghost. I feel like I died about 7 years ago when the 1st of many traumatic events occurred in my life. The only way that I know that I am alive is the intense emotional pain I am in day in and day out.
 
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akuyya

Permanent solution to a permanent problem.
Dec 3, 2020
16
completely relate. i feel nothing and have nothing left in me to give. is life better this way? :)
 
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EmptyManForever

My wings were cut and now I can fly no more!
Oct 3, 2020
141
I also can relate to this ,I am numb , apathetic and I also been suffering from anhedonia for 3 years now, it looks like it's never getting better, I also wish I could cry sometimes but I just can't, like I said I've become apathetic, no emotions, no feelings, I used to be a very emotional person , I used to cry like hell but not anymore , I feel like my mind is gone and honestly life is super boring when you are like this , there's absolutely nothing I can do, like I've said before I've become stuck with living , the other thing is I wanna ctb but without the thoughts in my head not been there anymore it's almost impossible to do it , just fuck life
 
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KleinerWolf

KleinerWolf

Account Wipe.
Apr 30, 2020
2,700
Disappointed and tired,
despaired and suicidal...
 
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issyishere

issyishere

Goodnight and always remember that’s life
Nov 5, 2019
441
Anxiety completely fried my ability to feel things. I worried and I worried and then I couldn't worry anymore. Now I feel nothing. Glad I don't worry anymore but at what cost? I feel dead already.
 
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