I also can relate to this ,I am numb , apathetic and I also been suffering from anhedonia for 3 years now, it looks like it's never getting better, I also wish I could cry sometimes but I just can't, like I said I've become apathetic, no emotions, no feelings, I used to be a very emotional person , I used to cry like hell but not anymore , I feel like my mind is gone and honestly life is super boring when you are like this , there's absolutely nothing I can do, like I've said before I've become stuck with living , the other thing is I wanna ctb but without the thoughts in my head not been there anymore it's almost impossible to do it , just fuck life