Help passing trans people here?

[nayomi]

i am thinking i might be trans and not non binary femboy.

and i was like omg thats it maybe i can just transition and i wont have suicidal ideation. i have seen many trans people having si crisis and then transition and it stopped.
on the other hand i see many people here that transition and it still not stopping so i am like, should i even bother?
if you are trans and passing, why you still having si? is it still because of gender dysphoria or other issues?
maybe this part of us that want to be trans is constantly active and trying to make us into crisis to change but it happens for so long it becomes chronic even if we change?
idk

plz help

 

[heal]

and i was like omg thats it maybe i can just transition and i wont have suicidal ideation.

That depends on what is actually causing your suicidal ideation, and it sounds like you are still trying to figure that part out. Do you feel your gender dysphoria is the primary thing causing you anguish, or is it something more nebulous, like a combination of different life stressors?

on the other hand i see many people here that transition and it still not stopping so i am like, should i even bother?

Regardless, I don't think it's realistic to assume any one thing can fully resolve your suicidal ideation, rather, I think you should focus on doing things that will improve your quality of life and make living more tolerable. On that note, feeling in alignment with your body might offer some relief toward achieving that goal. I'm not trying to convince you one way or the other however, because your mileage may vary and passing is not guaranteed.

if you are trans and passing, why you still having si? is it still because of gender dysphoria or other issues?

I feel conceited to admit and have a difficult time fully accepting the idea due to my body dysmorphia, but I have been told I am attractive on numerous occasions and receive a lot of attention in social settings. It has definitely boosted my self-confidence and improved my social life, but I am ultimately struggling with too many other issues. I have overcome my gender dysphoria, but still have a lot of unrelated trauma that prevents me from doing or achieving much of anything with my life.

I don't consider myself a woman, but it's how people read me. Having people treat me like a woman and finding me attractive has opened me up to a lot of different experiences, and not all of them have been positive. I could elaborate, but it's all typical of what anyone would expect.

 

[nayomi]

That depends on what is actually causing your suicidal ideation, and it sounds like you are still trying to figure that part out. Do you feel your gender dysphoria is the primary thing causing you anguish, or is it something more nebulous, like a combination of different life stressors?

thank you for answering.

i have no idea why i cant handle any pain.
there are stuff i like and enjoy doing but i dont have any reason bear this pain and i dont know why tbh and i dont know if it is some gender dysphoria i am hiding from myself
so any kind of pain i am having i just want to kill myself becasue i cant bear it

Regardless, I don't think it's realistic to assume any one thing can fully resolve your suicidal ideation, rather, I think you should focus on doing things that will improve your quality of life and make living more tolerable. On that note, feeling in alignment with your body might offer some relief toward achieving that goal. I'm not trying to convince you one way or the other however, because your mileage may vary and passing is not guaranteed

idk , i feel like a girl in a body of a guy that like it. i just cant express my femininty lots of the time or it is very misunderstood by society about how to treat me.
i want to go to women circles to talk about my feminity but i will probably be rejected from some and if i can join i will feel like an alien around cis women.

I feel conceited to admit and have a difficult time fully accepting the idea due to my body dysmorphia, but I have been told I am attractive on numerous occasions and receive a lot of attention in social settings. It has definitely boosted my self-confidence and improved my social life, but I am ultimately struggling with too many other issues. I have overcome my gender dysphoria, but still have a lot of unrelated trauma that prevents me from doing or achieving much of anything with my life.

I don't consider myself a woman, but it's how people read me. Having people treat me like a woman and finding me attractive has opened me up to a lot of different experiences, and not all of them have been positive. I could elaborate, but it's all typical of what anyone would expect.

i guess so. i do like to look like a guy because i can always vanish from the crowd