Discussion If you had a reliable fool proof method would you still be here?

[urgent]

Im so sorry for the suffering you are going through. But my words probably don't mean much compared to what you're going through.

What was special about Peru? Access to peaceful methods?

Yes, and to do it there.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

No, I would have been gone a long time ago.

 

[decadance]

i'm trying to stay around a little longer because i have things i want/need to do before i go, but theres been a lot of times where i was so desperate to die that yeah i would've been gone many years ago

 

[hihi2027]

i'm trying to stay around a little longer because i have things i want/need to do before i go, but theres been a lot of times where i was so desperate to die that yeah i would've been gone many years ago

I always think that if I had a button that instantly ended me, it wouldn't matter how good or bad the circumstances were. I would press it in heartbeat. My life is a net negative from my persepective so there's nothing to lose. And yeah, alot of my attempts weren't too planned out just desperate which is probs why they never worked out. Who knows, maybe its better to work out your method while you have a chance? Work out all the factors to make it as effective as possible. That way when you do finally decide its time to go, you'll have a plan in place that will cause the least amount of suffering and leave this world in peace

 

[skyunderthesea]

If I was American I wouldn't be here. With the ease of buying a gun in most of the States, and the much higher likelihood I would live in or have frequent access to a house with a gun, I would've blown my brains out long ago. Alas, I am Canadian and too lazy/broke to get a PAL, so hanging it is.

 

[hihi2027]

If I was American I wouldn't be here. With the ease of buying a gun in most of the States, and the much higher likelihood I would live in or have frequent access to a house with a gun, I would've blown my brains out long ago. Alas, I am Canadian and too lazy/broke to get a PAL, so hanging it is.

Even being american is not enough sometimes. Im too scared to tell anyone about my ctb thoughts since ill just get locked up and revoked my rights. No more gun, no more easy death. They only want you to use the painful methoss. Alas I have no money and no way to obtain a gun to blow my brains out without getting caught.

 

[skyunderthesea]

Even being american is not enough sometimes. Im too scared to tell anyway about my ctb thoughts since ill just get locked up and revoked my rights. No more gun, no more easy death. Alas I have no money and no way to obtain a gun to blow my brains out without getting caught.

What is even the point of being American then smh

 

[hihi2027]

What is even the point of being American then smh

I mean any country with easy access to gunstores do have it best, since blasting out brains is way better than jumping or something. Less chance for SI to get in the way. You have to be real careful when you purchase at the store though, they won't sell to anyone who looks or acts like they're going to commit.

You might think about going to the range to rent instead. I hope you already own your own firearm, or have a buddy to go with you. Its a new policy to prevent gun range suicides. Even if they let you in regardless, you better bet that someone is going to be watching you the whole time, right next to you.

In either case, I literally dont have access to this method currently

 

[skyunderthesea]

I mean any country with easy access to gunstores do have it best, since blasting out brains is way better than jumping or something. Less chance for SI to get in the way. You have to be real careful when you purchase at the store though, they won't sell to anyone who looks or acts like they're going to commit.

You might think about going to the range to rent instead. I hope you already own your own firearm, or have a buddy to go with you. Its a new policy to prevent gun range suicides. Even if they let you in regardless, you better bet that someone is going to be watching you the whole time, right next to you.

In either case, I literally dont have access to this method currently

I'm happy with my current method (check my profile if you're curious), but a couple of my somewhat close friends have taken up hunting and such so it would definitely be an option, if I wouldn't feel so bad about how traumatizing that would be for everyone else at the range. Best of luck to you, whether that's managing to get better or finally finding a good method.