Venting Having a vagina is a curse and I'm tired of pretending it's not.

[MoralApathy]

A couple years ago there was this website called novni and on it was a thread called "I hate being a girl so much it makes me wanna kms" and I found a couple stories of women who transitioned hoping to feel better and saying it didn't help them. like a month after I found it the whole site got taken down. Next I go to reddit and find similar threads about people hating being cis women and they get belittled, called misogynists and told to just transition. I go to trans men threads and they agree that they feel worthless without a penis but don't wanna say anything. And finally, I search for similar thoughts online and I find a channel with a video where a cis and trans woman were discussing "oppression Olympics" and the cis woman (not disclosing names cuz I don't want people harassing them.) referred to transphobic women not feeling heard or cared about compared to trans women as a "trauma response." Complete with eye rolling and everything. And yet another channel with a video called "transphobic women hate being women." I hate complaining. I hate being vulnerable. But I can't be the only one who feels like im just worthless for being born with a vagina. Regardless of gender. I cant be the only one that feels like cis men and trans women are just more loved (and hated) by society while cis women, trans men and basically anyone with a vagina are just pushed to the side and told to shut up for having feelings. And then men complain about bottling up their emotions. I'm so over this shit man. Phallocentrism is going to kill me and I have no one to talk to about it without being shut down when all I really want is to know how to deal with it. I wanna cry. It feels like women can't have anything while men are allowed to shit on trans men non stop and no one says a fucking word. I'm so over it. I'm over pride. I'm over everything. Shit on me if you want. I'll get used to it. We always do.